..+:.+.. StarLight..:+:.+..

I'm freak~

2010-05-24T00:15:00.000+08:00

Ella

I't's me... I'm a freak, but thank you for me loving me.. Cause you've done it perfectly~

3 years 7 months

2010-05-10T22:10:00.000+08:00

"Happy 3 yrs and 7 months!" is what i would say~

a date day i'll always remember very well in my heart... i wanna celebrate this anniversary on my own, just to reminisce the days that my heart was still alive..

18 March 2010, is our official break up.. i would have that anniversary too.. next week, it will be 2 months! hehe..

i don know wat else to write~ i'm feeling very giddy now.. i may fall anytime.. i'm physically terribily sick this days.. i don even know how my ex-bf knows that i'm sick.. he still text me his misses and take care.. receive unexpected call from him too..i'm happy that he still thinks abt me..

i should pen off now..i have quote to share,"someday, i may forget the memories that we had, i may forget how you look,even forget your name but my heart will never forget that i have always love you"

Make Love

2010-04-22T19:36:00.000+08:00

Sleepless night
All that I could think about was us
And the way that only you know how to touch me
I try to move on
But I know I`m just fooling myself
Don`t wanna be kissed,touched,loved
Or give my heart to someone else

Time is froze, since you left the world.

I wish i could reverse the past and go back to those times.

Wish we never broke up... We need to link up right now

I wanna make love right now

I wanna make up right now
But before we make up

Promise me you`ll never do it again
Tell me that we`ll make it through to the end

-Akon ft Danny Fernandes

TGIF!

2010-04-16T22:38:00.000+08:00

Ella

Thank God It's Friday!! today in class, i still thought that tmr need to come bck for school~ hahahha.. it's because from my previous job, on weekends also have to come back to work.. so when my lesson are about to end, i finally realised that i'm schooling and it's 5 days work week, weekends is my rest days!! hahahha.. so in class, i was excited and said, "YEAH! TGIF! Thank God It's Friday!" and my classmates was like, yeah~ so see you on monday! have a good weekends~ hahahahah..

so, 2 days of lesson~ Teacher or we called them Facilitator~ My Faci will give the class a problem statement about the topic that we are studying for the day, and then, discuss how to do about it and den before ending our lessons, we have to do presentation for our answers~ Republic Polytechnic is using Problem Base Learning (PBL) everyday.. we don have textbooks or notes.. All thru the laptop.. Faci will always give problems for us and we will give alternative answers to faci and the rest of the class.. share our opinions about their presentatiion and etc.. PBL will always trigger your brains and also boost your confidence to speak and share your suggestions~

our time table is totally different from wat i expected it to be.. i thought our time table for the day will be like this e.g 0830-0930h is Science, 0930-1000h, Maths.. But it's not like that~ my timetable is 1 Subject per Day, e.g Monday, Mathematics and Tuesday, Communication Skills.. so that's how we have PBL everyday.. example, Faci give us maths problem sum in the morning, with team members, have to discussed about it, den at noon, prepare slide show, in the afternoon, do presentation~ sometimes, we have to skip our lunch to rush out our slide shows.. our lunch time is in together with our slides preparation time~ bad thing is that, we don't have like 1hr lunch in between our lesson.. example is at 1130-1330h to prepare slides (lunch included).. no time to dilly dally when having lunch~ eat fast or skip it!

all i can say is RP is just to do presentation everyday and cracking your brains to get the problem solves~ i'll get numb to it soon~ hahahhaa.. And i'm looking forward to Monday's Problem! gdnite and tcx! Have a good weekends! =)

Song for my mood today:

A night to be remembered

2010-04-14T23:39:00.001+08:00

Ella

I had a good time today! STA didnt won for the Principle cup this yr but we're the 2nd RUNNER UP!!! SSTA SSTA SSTA 1,2 WOOT WOOT!!

Tonite was a GREAT NITE!! this event only held once year and it's JAM AND HOP!! it's like a dance party for first yr students.. First time in my life, dancing in the crowds with LOUD DJ's MUSICS and SCREAMS for 2 hours non-stop~!!! And also, a cute stranger asked me to dance with him!! Wow~! Oh YEAH!!!

I'm not going onto the details cos i'm tired right now!! Good nite peeps!

- Posted from Ella's iPhone

School Starts~

2010-04-13T18:58:00.000+08:00

Ella

today was my 2nd day of orientation.. the 1st day wasn't so bad.. i still hate orientation days cos i don like ice-breaking, games and cheering etc.. my group student leaders is awesome! they let us slack a lot! hehehe.. we played only 4 out of 40 games!! hahaha.. but we did our own game at our home base~ It was fun! better than the games that other student leaders have organized~

Alright! let me remind to readers that i go back to school!! i registered thru DAE ( Direct Admission Exercise).. My 1st choice of course is Diploma New Media (DNM) and YES, I GOT INTO THE COURSE!! and I'm officially a student of Republic Polytechnic, School of Technology for the Arts~ For more info abt the course, click New Media

it's somehow related to my ex-bf interest~ video editing and studio stuff.. of cos photography is also included in my course.. hehe.. i took this course becos it's my hobby! i hope i could make my hobby into a career someday~

why i go bck school? it was a last mins decision after few days when my ex-bf break up with me.. it was a 24 hour decision!! i thought that my work is sux~ i was devastated and need to do something fun.. either i go back school or take a break from work and find a better job.. so i discussed with my parents that i wanted to go bck school cos i cant save money and if go bck school, can get mendaki for help.. and yes, i'm gonna graduate at the age of 23~ when am i gonna get married? how long do i need to save money for marriage? i don know how to ans that... maybe i wont be looking for new bf cos my heart still belongs to him.. i'm gonna move on and concentrate on my studies and have fun in school.. if evan comes bck to me, consider myself lucky! hehehe.. if not, i'm unlucky lo~

ok~ my 2nd day of orientation was better than yesterday~ we cheered a lot for Tug-of-War and my school, School of Technology for the Arts (STA), WON 2nd place!! hahahaha.. not bad right~ i cheered till my throat hurts.. hehehehe.. we also did a mass dance as a Republic Poly and cheers from individuals schools.. SSTA SSTA SSTA~~ Whoop whooop!

RP class is totally different~ for the 1st year, our class is mix together with other students from other schools.. wont stick with students of STA only cos we will be studying the same modules for the 1st year~ for 2nd and 3rd year, i heard we will be studying with own course modules and also wont get to know well with ur classmates cos classes will change a lot! So, the classmates that we will get to know very well is our 1st yr classmates~ actually, i don really understand why our 2nd and 3rd yr we wont get to know our classmates very well?? they are studying the same course as me so, i'm sure we can get to know each other very well.. like tat how to do project work?? hehehe..

i'm so tired and sleepy already.. tmr, i got 3rd orientation from 0830-2200h. got performance at nite.. i don know whether i wanna stay till night or not.. in the morning, i have introduction of class.. my first class will be at W36G.. the 'class' is quite easy to remember;

'W' means West,

'3' means block 3,

'6' means level 6,

'G' is classroom..

i should end now.. i think my post is very long now.. take care! =D

To my dearest,

mommy and daddy have broken up over stupid adult matter.. We still have our rings on our fingers and yes, we still love each other~ mommy have to give daddy sometime to think and make space for himself.. mommy and daddy are splitting up for awhile~ mommy promise not to do anything stupid and will take daddy's advise when mommy is in school.. daddy also make promises for mommy~ i hope daddy keep his promises too this time~

Loves you,

mommy

Hubby, I'm Sorry~

2010-04-06T14:52:00.000+08:00

Ella

They say it takes time to get over serious relationships
But I’ve been waiting patiently

I’m still stuck on you
I still picture your face smiling at me
I’ve made a big mistake

And now I’ve got to face the consequences of my actions
But until your back here in my arms
I’ll never have the satisfaction

I know you know that I’m sorry
I never meant to hurt you
Is there anything that I can do?
To make it up to you
I’d do anything baby
Cause I’m sorry
I never meant to make you cry

I don’t want to say goodbye
I’m sorry, I’m sorry that I lied

Every day that passes I’m missing you more and more
I still remember the first time I set eyes on you
I knew this was heaven sent
that I was destined
To be with you
And now I’ve messed it up
I pray to god above
that you will forgive me
Just take me in your arms
And hold me all night long
And tell me you’ll never leave me... baby~

I believe that everything happens for a reason
I know everybody makes mistakes
And everybody regrets sometimes
Don't let this ruin everything that we had
I don’t want you to forget how much I love you baby
how much I miss you baby
You get me missing you baby
You mean everything to me

Try Sleeping With a Broken Heart

2010-04-04T21:32:00.000+08:00

Ella

Even if you were a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
telling me, touch me, feel me
And even in the bottom of the sea
I can still hear inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time you were telling me lies

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you
I’m gonna hold onto the times that we had
Tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart
Well you can try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, only, nobody ever shut it down like you
You wore the crown, you make my body feel heaven-bound
Why don’t you hold me, need me, I thought you told me
You’d never leave me

Looking in the sky I can see your face
And i knew right where I’d fit in
Take me, make me
You know that I’ll always be in love with you
Right til the end

So tonight I’m gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could have told you right from the start
It’s bout fall apart
So rather than hold onto a broken dream
Or just hold onto love
And I could find a way to make it
Don’t hold on too tight
I’ll make it without you tonight

Best in me

2010-03-30T22:51:00.000+08:00

Ella

From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine
You touched my hand
And I knew that this was gonna be our time
I don't ever wanna lose this feeling
I don't wanna spend a moment apart

Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you

Every day that I'm here with you
I know that it feels right
And I've just got to be near you every day and every night
And you know that we belong together
It just had to be you and me

Never Be Replaced

2010-03-28T21:45:00.000+08:00

Ella

Evan I love you and i'll never let you go
All the love we make can never be erased
And i promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you,
Yes i do.
From the day i met you i knew we'd be together.
And now i know i want to be with you forever, i want to marry you and i want to have
your kids.
Thinking can never compare to the feeling of your kisses.

I can say i'm truly happy till this day.
You make me thank god that i live my life every day.
There's never been a doubt in my mind that id regret ever having you by my side.
But if the day comes that i have to let you go
I think there's something i should probably let you know,
Enjoyed everyday that i spent with you and i will miss you cause i'm happy that i had
you at all.

noʎ ǝɔɐןdǝɹ ɹǝʌǝ uɐɔ ǝsןǝ ǝuo ou ~ɥʇıʍ ɟןǝsʎɯ ǝq uɐɔ ı ʇɐɥʇ uɐɯ ʎןuo ǝɥʇ ǝɹ,noʎ ˙˙noʎ ǝʌoן sʎɐʍןɐ ןן,ı 'uɐʌǝ

I know how much u're hurt~

2010-03-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

Ella

This is how u felt lately~ I understands.. I'm very sorry for being selfish.. I miss my Dark Prince~!

"Allah, I've realised how selfish i was.. take him for granted and you take my guardian angel away~ Forgive my sins and my selfish love.. I hope you could return my guardian angel bck to me some day.. I'll wait patiently for that Angel to heal.. I hope you could heal his wounds for me and forgive me.. Amen"

I've Realized Now

2010-03-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

Ella

I've realized how much i have hurt you.. i understand ur feelings.. you don want me to get close with another guy frend becos u are afraid of losing me.. u get jealous and feel very insecure even if i tell u that i'm always yours.. at the same time, u are tired of fighting with me and makes me feel that u are controlling me and maybe u hate seeing me upset over this and u let go of this relationship..

I'm sorry for being selfish.. i was giving in to my emotions.. both of us are giving in to our emotions.. i really wish to turn back in time ag.. i miss you so much.. i feel so cold by the way you text me.. even a friend msg me much more warm than yourself.. i don know if you're still feeling awkward or not.. i hope everything goes alright for us.. we don't know if we are meant for each other.. i know i still love you.. i know i want you to be with me again in the future.. but u will let me know when you feel if we are meant for each other.. that hurts my heart so much.. i'm here still loving you but i don know how you feel now.. i'm here hoping everyday, we will be better but turns out to be more painful.. whenever i received your msg, i hold bck my tears but every nite, i cried in my sleep.. i feel so restless everyday..

probably u never read this blog anymore.. i'm going thru so much pain.. i may look strong on the outside, but i'm breaking into pieces inside.. u hurt me twice.. firstly, u lied to me for having a gf.. u promised not to break it ag.. and this is the 2nd time u break it.. i gave my heart to u and this is wat i have in return..

i need a hand that fits in with mine and a heart to understand~

"Love isn’t him calming you down when you yell. It’s
him yelling, just as loud, just as hard, right back at you, right in
your face to wake you up and keep you grounded. It isn’t him bringing
you roses everyday or cute things that make your relationship appear
more presentable. It’s after a long fight, that drains the l...ife and
bones out of both of you, and yet him showing up at your door the next
morning anyway. It’s not him saying all the right things or knowing
exactly how to handle you. It’s not him caressing your hair and telling
you everything is going to be alright. It’s him standing there,
admitting he’s just as scared as you are. You have to remember that with
love, you’re not the only one involved. You’ve unknowingly put your
life, your heart into the palms of another person’s hands and said,
“Here. Do what you will. Mash it into mince meat, or forget I ever
handed it to you.- Faceboook User"

I think above phrase is very true.,.. i've never realized what i have done to u.. i regret of losing u~ if i ever get that 2nd chance to be with u ag, i don want to let go of u anymore.. that 2nd chance will depends on how u feel.. i'll respect ur decision and i'll move on... i feel more pain being apart from u every single day.. i cried my hearts out till i cant breathe..

I was reborn when you first kissed me.
Part of me died when you left me.
But now I still live,
waiting for the day you return to me.

Lovers & Friends

2010-03-23T22:46:00.001+08:00

He suggested to take 1 step bck.. We are gonna be very very good frends..

Some of u might think, wont we feel awkward after all the years being together and passionate intimacy that we had turns out to be just friends??

I'm going thru awkward feeling now but wat can i do? I don wanna lose him.. I have to accept his decision.. He doesnt want to rush our relationship.. See what can we reflect on ourselves.. Let fate decides..

Since he wants to be good frends with me, he have not done anything to make this friendship go on yet.. If he just saying it and not contacting me anymore, he's not keeping his words.. But if at any point of time he feel worse being frends together cos he still have feelings for me, i'll reach out to hug and kiss him dearly~ he's the only man i want to live my life with..

There's so much more that i wanna say to him but i have text it in another place where he wouldnt log in at all.. Cos i feel better to express it out there without getting any replies from him~ he still not thinking straight yet.. I don wanna pressure him much..

"We will just be friends when u are ready to start conversation with me cos you're the one suggested it.. Pls don let ur ego controls ur heart.. i miss u so much~"

- Posted from Ella's iPhone

Leo & Pisces Compatibility 2010

2010-03-21T14:05:00.000+08:00

Ella

Just remember that when you're involved with a Leo, you're involved with a superstar, a leader, an achiever and a chief-of-staff. When you get involved with a Pisces, you get involved with a rescuer, a victim, a mystic and an idealist.

If you can give a Leo sincere admiration and applause then you have a better chance of getting their love and affection. If you can give a Pisces help, health, fantasy and art, you have a better chance of getting their love and affection.

At heart, Leo is practically perfect. The ancients have said that Leo is entitled to the Lion's share of fun. Leo needs to roar with pride, both on center stage and in the bedroom. By Developing willpower, Leo can find creative ways to get into the spotlight and shine. Leo is playing the game of life stakes higher than Pisces may realize. To win points, Pisces can treat Leo to a most excellent piece of gold jewelry. Leo also appreciates Pisces' undivided attention.

There are at least two sides to Pisces' personality. One is more kind, loving, tolerant and long-suffering than most people. The other can be biting. Pisces, you don't want to hurt people, unless you are feeling righteous and need to punish the guilty.

It's fair to say that Pisces is imaginative, a dreamer, and even mystical. Pisces certainly seems to absorb and drink in surroundings more than most people. Pisces has mood swings and can benefit from live music and dance. Pisces can break the chains of fate and destiny. More than most people, Pisces is a product of beliefs as much as disbeliefs. As Henry Ford said Pisces, "Whether you think you can or you can't, you are right."
In the relationship between Leo and Pisces adjustment is key. You both need to give more than you get. This association requires extra sensitivity. At first, each may be somewhat irritated about each other. In time, with work, the very thing that caused the irritation may lead to personal fulfillment. You can't force growth in this alliance- go along with the changes. To beat the odds, change your routines.

I miss you~

2010-03-21T01:04:00.001+08:00

Ella

1. When she stares at your mouth = "Kiss her"
2. When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass cuz she think shes stronger than you = "Let her hit & act painful"
3. When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tuff = "Kiss her and tell her you love her"
4. When she's quiet = "Ask her what's wrong"
5. When she ignores you = "Give her your attention"
6. When you see her at her worst = "Tell her she's beautiful"
7. When you see her start crying = "Just hold her and don't say a word"
8. When she steals your favorite pillow = "Let her keep it and slp with it for a night"
9. When she doesn't answer for a long time = "Reassure her that everything is okay"
10. When she looks at you with doubt = "Back yourself up"
11. When she says that she likes you = "She really does more than you could understand!"
12. When she looks at you in your eyes = "Don't look away until she does"
13. When she says it's over = "She still wants you to be hers"
14. When she re-posts this = "She wants you to read it"
15. Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
16. Call her at 12:00am on her birthday/anniversary dates to tell her you love her
17. Treat her like she's all that matters to you
18. Stay up all night with her when she's sick
19. Watch her favorite movie or her favorite show with her even if you think it's stupid

To start over again

2010-03-20T10:06:00.000+08:00

I wish to start all over again...

I'm gonna quit my job..

I wanna go back school..

I want to start loving him again..

I miss him~

- Posted from Ella's iPhone

Officially Over

2010-03-19T21:16:00.001+08:00

There's nothing else i could save this relationship.. He doesn't like me being so happy with another frend..

I'm the villain of this relationship.. I get so closed with another male frend that i shared most stories with.. Evan doesn't like it.. He feel very insecured abt it.. And i'm being very selfish to think only abt myself.. I didnt think abt his feelings..

I'm aware of what he doesn't like and how he is..

1. He don like me chatting with another guy
2. He's very sensitive
3. He's very curious
4. He's not romantic
5. He easily get jealous
6. He don like me doing things he doesn't like
7. He dont like fighting in relationship

None of the above, i can fulfill it.. I didnt care abt how he felt.. Cos all i care is abt myself.. I've never done anything good in all my relationships..

I miss him so much.. I miss his voice.. I miss his warm hug.. I miss him playing ard with me.. I miss his kisses.. I regretted it.. I didnt treasure him.. There's no chance of us getting bck together ag.. My selfishness make me lose everything i have.. And i don know how to get it bck ag~

- Posted from Ella's iPhone

Our 3yr and 5 months

2010-03-10T08:09:00.001+08:00

Ella

Gdmorninz hubby~ It's our 3yr and 5 months together.. So much things we've been thru lately and none of us make each other happy.. I always brought up problems that doesn't exist for us.. Almost everyday, u make me cry to sleep with an eye bag for the next morning..

We don know how to fulfill each other's happiness anymore.. Is it becos we are too comfortable with each other or we just care less abt each other?

There was once a teacher said to me, "feelings will fade and it doesn't last forever but commitment and goals for each other is a life time.."

What commitments do we have for each other? Give happiness for each other? We don't have a family yet.. That's the hardest commitment.. Our simple commitment is just happiness but have we fulfill it? What are our goals? Save up money for our future together? We are doing it right now but will there be a future for us?

I don't know what God have in stored for us.. Do we have a future? I don't know who to seek for advise.. Who can actually save ourselves? I save u and u save me? Haiz.. We make each other fall to the ground and get hurt..

Both of us are limping to go thru this journey.. I know God brought us to this journey but we are not alone.. God is with us in this journey to guide us thru but i'm not sure where we are heading to..

I don't know if you are the one for me.. I don't know if we have an happy ending.. I don't know how long we can hold on for each other.. Only one thing that i know is i need you.. I don know if u think that i just want you to accompany me or i just love u.. I just don know wat is love anymore... It's getting complicated~

- Posted from Ella's iPhone

A wonderful Birthday!!!

2010-03-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

I've just turned 28 recently and i am glad i have tasted the most wonder sweet and sour fish from baby and the damm nice tasty chicken soup. She really know how to capture my tummy, (no wonder i am getting fatter, yet still tease me bout it). thou spending the day is simple, but this is how the way i like it spend. Happily, laughing and loving each other. Chilling at star buck when both are tired, do bit of window shopping, nothing much i want to buy too. hehe...but the sad thing is not much of my friends remember it, i guess the reason is they rely on face book (which i deleted away). any way, it ain't important. as long i get to spend it with my baby, that is all i am asking for.

a big THANKS YOU and I LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!

Going back to work was bit tiring for me, lolx....due to the migration of s......o......e .... lolx...many things are still a blur to me and many restriction are being impose on the users, thou it seem like it make my job easier, trust me, it is not. haha...i shall not trash it out here. haaha

To kids

it may seem strange that daddy and mummy always fight, but rest assure that we still love each other alot and love u'll alot. lolx...u may find it bit....errr...but that is how is it...deal with it...u might see mummy biting or pinching daddy alot..or called me cute but silly name...u cannot follow ar...hehe....

Jokes to chill

Types Of Women

HARD-DISK Woman:

She remembers everything, FOREVER.

RAM Woman:

She forgets about you, the moment you turn her off.

WINDOWS Woman:

Everyone knows that she can't do a thing right, but no one can live without her.

EXCEL Woman:

They say she can do a lot of things but you mostly use her for your four basic needs.

SCREENSAVER Woman:

She is good for nothing but at least she is fun!

INTERNET Woman:

Difficult to access.

SERVER Woman:

Always busy when you need her.

MULTIMEDIA Woman:

She makes horrible things look beautiful.

CD-ROM Woman:

She is always faster and faster.

E-MAIL Woman:

Every ten things she says, eight are nonsense.

VIRUS Woman:

Also known as "WIFE"; when you are not expecting her, she comes, installs herself and uses all your resources. If you try to uninstall her you will lose something, if you don't try to uninstall her you will lose everything............

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First Malaysian in space

Dr. Mahathir was about to send the first Malaysian rocket into space.

3 potential astronauts were called for an interview - one Indian, one Malay and one Chinese.

Dr. Mahathir interviewed the Indian first: "So, Kumar, this is a dangerous mission... how much do you think you should be paid for it?"

Kumar thought for a while and said, "1 million ringgit."

"Why so much?" asked Dr. Mahathir.

"Nowadays toddy wery expensive, Datuk..." replied Kumar.

"I see," said Dr. Mahathir. "Thank you... please ask the Malay guy to come here."

So the Malay walked up, and was asked the same question.

"Uh... 2 million boleh lah," replied Ahmad, the Malay applicant.

"2 million? That's a lot of money! Even the aneh before you only asked for one million!"

"You see, Datuk," explained Ahmad. "I have 4 wives and 15 children...so, 20 of us in the family, we need a lot of money to support ourselves..."

"I see," said Dr. Mahathir "Okay, can you ask the Chinese guy to come up here now?"

The Chinese guy came in and Dr. Mahathir asked, "Ah Kow, this is a dangerous mission... how much do you think you should be paid?"

Ah Kow thought for a while, and suddenly said, "3 million."

Dr Mahathir was shocked. "WHAT?!?! 3 million? Why so much?!"

Ah Kow beckoned Dr. Mahathir to come closer, and whispered, "One million you keep, one million I keep, and then one more million to send the aneh into space."

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Sun exploration

Three delegates from China, Indonesia and Malaysia attended the United Nations' Meeting. All the nations were discussing about space exploration by the year 2020. Here were some of the conversations:

Chinese Delegate: 'By the year 2020, China will start their moon exploration project.'

Indonesian Delegate: "We too, we are going to explore the moon. This time we will see to it that our cosmonauts will step on the moon."

Malaysian Delegate: "By the year 2020, Malaysia will explore the sun."

There was a long silence, the other candidates stood up and all asked the Malaysia Delegate the same question: "Isn't it too hot to explore the sun?"

Malaysian Delegate (smiling): "I had this thought out already. We will do it in the evening."

Man's 28th Birthday!!

2010-03-02T23:41:00.000+08:00

Ella

Before ending the day, i wanna share some photos that i took with hubby on his birthday! heheheh.. i cooked good meal for him and still he feel quite full till now.. lolx~! I cooked Sweet & Sour Grouper Fish and Chicken Soup.. Hubby loves soup, so i decided to cook chicken soup for him and the sweet & sour fish is a special birthday dish for him...hehehehe.. Thanks to my mommy for helping me in the kitchen~ Without her, i don think i can finish cooking on time.. heheheheh..

Happy Birthday Hubby!! I hope u have a great time today~! I love you always... Muack muack muack..

More pics from my facebook~ hehehhee

To My Babies

Today, mommy cooked for daddy sweet & sour fish and chicken soup.. hehehe.. daddy loves chicken soup~! next time, mommy will cook chicken soup for you darlings ok? hehehhe.. mommy and daddy went down to orchard and chillax.. see our photos~ we really had a great time together.. hehehe.. next time on daddy's birthday ag, we'll go out together as a family ya~! I love you~!!

Love always,

Mommy

Happy Birthday Boo~~!!!

2010-03-02T00:05:00.000+08:00

Ella

On this birthday, you grow another year older..

I can't give anything expensives gifts for your birthday,

But i've planned to cook something special for your birthday,

So look forward to it tmr ok? I'll work hard to get any presents u want in the future~

"Each year your birthday reminds me
That I really want to say
I’m very glad I know you;
I think of you each day.I hope you enjoy your birthday,
All the pleasures it has in store,
And because I appreciate you,
I hope you have many more!By Joanna Fuchs "

To my child,

Today is your daddy's birthday! Must remember daddy's birthday ok? Run to him and wish happy birthday and give him a great big hug and kisses to daddy~ Sing Happy Birthday in Korean for daddy~ hehehe.. My child, please be good ok? Daddy and Mommy will always love you~ muack muack muack

On a Rocky Ship

2010-02-26T01:03:00.000+08:00

Ella

nthg good happen recently.. me and hubby have always been in a fight.. no one else is reading this blog except for us.. i just don know wat to say.. everything happen, we both knows.. the purpose of this blog is for our future children to read abt us..

To my children,

Mommy have not been treating daddy very good.. Daddy not very happy with me but i will try my best to cheer him up.. Mommy sincerely love daddy so much, but there are things that Daddy should understand wat mommy is going thru and have to be fair with mommy.. At the same time, mommy will try to keep up with wat daddy wants from mommy.. most of all, u should know that mommy and daddy love u so much

Love always,

Mommy

Some Thing BIG is coming....

2010-02-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

EVAN

been clearing my leaving since my cny holidays....don know y...felt the mondays blue..thou it is only thursday...hehe...but oh well...going back to work is not a bad thing too...at least there is something for me to do...haha...mayb i just hate the waking up part...haha....any way...when i go back to work...it will be a busy 3 weeks for me...as SOE is gonna start...i can foreseen lots of problem..hahaha....but oh well...

been watching lots of mind freak this fews day..make me wonder...is he really that good? can he really read others mind? predict the future? control others ppl? levitate himself or others? well...i find it very real....but some of the tricks he do..seem so fake...well..u got to see it for yrself to judge it...lolx...but still i like the ways he present the feats...that is cool...

things are getting better between me and baby...hopefully everything will be well...after that ordeal...we both have learn and understand and grown alot....and i have plan some stuff...for the near future...hopefully it can be successfully carried out...haha...there is lots to accomplished for this year...but of coz i am not going to reveal it out now....will only reveal it in due time...haha....

cny this year...seem to be very 'cut short' for me...as i grow older...the lesser relative i visit...but that is good for me....i am not tat close with them any way...as for the ang bao...i don really care ba...hahaha....( may be i am working)...haha...but this year cny is quite fun...and special..with the addition of a new member to my family...that is jorel...haha...i find tat he seem to be the star of the cny event...haha...every where he go...every seem to be take a liking to him...haha...well...his b-day is in may 28...and i now wat i am gonna get him..hahaha...being eying a air force suit for him at army market since last year...gonna get that!!! .hehehe

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A blonde's house was on fire. She called 911 and started screaming, "Help me, please! My house is burning! Hurry!"
The operator said, "Okay, calm down and we'll be there soon. How do we get to your house?"
The blonde answered, "Duh, in that big red truck!"

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One day, a blonde's neighbor goes over to her house, sees the blonde crying, and asks her what happened. The blonde said that her mother had passed away. The neighbor made her some coffee and calmed her down a little and then left. The next day the neighbor went back over to the house and found the blonde crying again. She asked her why she was crying this time.
''I just got off of the phone with my sister, her mother died too!''

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Three women were sitting around talking about their husbands' performance as lovers.

The first woman says "My husband works as a marriage counsellor. He always buys me flowers and candy before we make love. I like that."

The second woman says, "My husband is a motorcycle mechanic. He likes to play rough and slaps me around sometimes. I kinda like that."

The third woman just shakes her head and says, "My husband works for Microsoft. He just sits on the edge of the bed and tells me how great it's going to be when I get it."

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A husband, tired of his wife asking him how she looks, buys her a full length mirror.

This does little to help, as now she just stands in front of the mirror, looking at herself, asking him how she looks.

One day, fresh out of the shower, she is yet again in front of the mirror, now complaining that her breasts are too small.Uncharacteristically, the husband comes up with a suggestion.

"If you want your breasts to grow, then every day take a piece of toilet paper,and rub it between your breasts for a few seconds."

Willing to try anything, the wife fetches a piece of toilet paper and stands in front of the mirror, and began rubbing it between her breasts. "How long will this take?" she asks.

"They'll grow larger over a period of years," he replies. The wife stops. "Why do you think rubbing a piece of toilet paper between my breasts everyday will make my breasts grow over the years?" she asks.

The husband shrugs. "Why not, it worked for your ass, didn't it?"

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THE PERFECT DAY FOR HER

8.15 Wake up to hugs and kisses.

8.30 Weigh in 2kgs lighter than yesterday.

8.45 Breakfast in bed, freshly squeezed orange juice and croissants, open presents - expensive jewellery chosen by thoughtful partner.

9.15 Soothing hot bath with frangipani bath oil.

10.00 Light work out at club with handsome and funny personal trainer.

10.30 Facial, manicure, shampoo, condition, blow dry.

12.00 Lunch with best friend at a fashionable outdoor cafe.

12.45 Catch sight of husband/boyfriend's ex and notice she's gained 15kgs.

1.00 Shopping with friends, unlimited credit.

3.00 Nap.

4.00 Three dozen roses delivered by florist, card is from secret admirer.

4.15 Light work out at club, followed by massage from strong but gentle hunk who says he rarely gets to work on such a perfect body.

5.30 Choose outfit from expensive designer wardrobe, parade before full-length mirror.

7.30 Candlelit dinner for two followed by dancing, with compliments received from other diners/dancers.

10.00 Hot shower (alone).

10.50 Carried to bed..........(freshly ironed, crisp, new, white linen).

11.00 Pillow talk, light touching and cuddling.

11.15 Fall asleep in his big strong arms.

THE PERFECT DAY FOR HIM

6.00 Alarm.

6.15 Blow job.

6.30 Take a very satisfying and absolute Monster dump while reading the sport section.

7.00 Breakfast: rump steak and eggs, coffee and toast, all cooked by naked wench who bends over a lot showing her growler.

7.30 Limo arrives.

7.45 Flight in personal Lear Jet.

9.15 Limo to Mirage Resort Golf Club (blow job en-route).

9.45 Play front nine - 2 under.

11.45 Lunch - pie, chips and gravy, 3 lagers and a bottle of Dom Perignon.

12.15 Blow job.

12.30 Play back nine (of golf course) - 4 under.

2.15 Limo back to the airport (Several Bourbons).

2.30 Fly to Cairns.

3.30 Late afternoon fishing excursion with all female crew, all nude who also bend over a lot displaying growlers.

4.30 Land world record Marlin (1234lbs) - on light tackle.

5.00 Fly home, massage and blow job by naked Elle McPherson (bending over......naturally).

6.45 ****, Shower and Shave.

7.00 Watch news: Michael Jackson assassinated; marijuana and hard porn
legalised.

7.30 Dinner: lobster appetiser, Dom Perignon (1953) big juicy fillet steak followed by ice-cream served on a big pair of tits.

9.00 Sex with three women (all with lesbian tendencies.....some bending over).

11.00 Massage and Jacuzzi with tasty pizza snacks and a cleansing ale
+ blowjob.

11.45 In bed alone.

11.50 A 12 second fart which changes note 4 times and forces the dog to leave the room.

12.00 Spend 10 mins laughing before falling asleep.

Some stuff to relaz

2010-02-09T22:27:00.000+08:00

Evan

recently there have been too many things happening in my life (relationship) ....hopefully me and baby can breeze right through this storm and arrive at the rainbow. I believe once the worst is over...every thing will be alright. What has happen for the past 1 or 2 weeks...has been state quite clearly....there have been a super big fight..and both of us clearly need to be calm down. so i propose a month of cool off...but due to missing each other too much..we shorten it...but still not meeting each everyday..hope fully going by this method...we can cut down on the fighting.

enough of problem...cny is coming...every one ought to be happy...( ang bao!!!!)...hehe...any way..some jokes for u to enjoy

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99 Facts abt Guys that Girls shld know
1. Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. they prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys hate other flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.
5. Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them. …….dont think so
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking! but do not generalise
13. Guys cry!!!
14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands……yeh rite – watever.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow”. ……so true.
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate gays!
25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.
28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guysâ€™ weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. It’s good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice…….very true.
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts. ……..sumtimes.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!……very true.
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed P**** with their girlfriends…..sumtimes depends wen they want sumat.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”……sumtimes.
59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him….very important.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and football, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake. ….they love u regardless.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!……true but only wen the guys are ready 2be settled down.
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.
74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed by you or he’s criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!
97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.
98. Guys hate girls who overreact. ……sumtimes.
99. Guys love you more than you love them IF they are serious in your relationships.
100. Most Edmw boyfriends love to piak 1st talk later.. prepare helmet 1st...

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Two blondes are shopping at the mall. When they are done they go out to their

car, which happens to be an awesome leather interior convertible. When they get

to the car, they realize they had locked the keys in the car. So they both kind of

stand there and think for a while.

Finally one gets am idea to try to open the car with a hanger. So the first blonde

starts fiddling with the lock with the hanger. The other blonde looks up at the sky

and suddenly becomes very worried.

"HURRY, HURRY," she urges. "IT'S GOING TO RAIN AND WE LEFT THE TOP DOWN!"

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A blonde is walking down the street and a car pulled up next to her.

The man in the car says to her, ''What do you have in the bag?''

The blonde replies: ''I have chickens!''

The man thinks for a moment and says, ''If I can guess how many chickens you

have in the bag, can I have one?''

The blonde thinks that it sounds fair and replies, ''Okay, but I'll make the bet even

better! If you can guess how many chickens I have in the bag I will give you BOTH

of them!"

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food for tot

If a man cuts his finger off while slicing salami at work, he blames the restaurant.

If you smoke three packs a day for 40 years and die of lung cancer, your family blames the tobacco company..

If your neighbor crashes into a tree while driving home drunk, he blames the bartender.

If your grandchildren are brats without manners, you blame television.

If your friend is shot by a deranged madman, you blame the gun manufacturer.

And if a crazed person breaks into the cockpit and tries to kill the pilot at 35,000 feet, and the passengers kill him instead, the mother of the crazed deceased blames the airline.

I must have lived too long to understand the world as it is anymore.

So, if I die while my OLD WRINKLED ASS is parked in front of this computer, I want all of you to blame Bill Gates

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Be not ashamed of mistakes and thus make them crimes.
Before you embark on a journey of revenge, dig two graves.
Everything has its beauty but not everyone sees it.
Forget injuries, never forget kindnesses.
He who will not economize will have to agonize.

I hear and I forget. I see and I remember. I do and I understand.

Ignorance is the night of the mind, but a night without moon and star.
It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop.
Men's natures are alike, it is their habits that carry them far apart.

Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in getting up every time we do.

Respect yourself and others will respect you.

Study the past if you would define the future.

The superior man, when resting in safety, does not forget that danger may come. When in a state of security he does not forget the possibility of ruin. When all is orderly, he does not forget that disorder may come. Thus his person is not endangered, and his States and all their clans are preserved.

To be able under all circumstances to practice five things constitutes perfect virtue; these five things are gravity, generosity of soul, sincerity, earnestness and kindness.
To see what is right and not to do it is want of courage.
To see what is right, and not to do it, is want of courage or of principle.

What the superior man seeks is in himself; what the small man seeks is in others.

When anger rises, think of the consequences.

When we see men of a contrary character, we should turn inwards and examine ourselves.

Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart.

They must often change who would be constant in happiness or wisdom.
By nature, men are nearly alike; by practice, they get to be wide apart.
Fine words and an insinuating appearance are seldom associated with true virtue.

Have no friends not equal to yourself.

SHopping and Chillax!

2010-02-09T19:46:00.000+08:00

Ella

i went cut my hair and den do my lonely shopping.. doesn't mean lonely is no good.. i'm a loner.. i like to shop alone sometimes.. depends on my mood.. ehhehehe.. i enjoy it very much actually!! ehehehhe.. i love my off day.. i bought a bra, panties and clothes.. my clothes are red cos CNY and Valentines' is this coming Sunday.. hehehehe.. den, i chillax at Starbucks with Honey Orange Mocha Ice.. is very nice!! i just love Starbucks! hmm... i still have some savings left.. hope it can last thru out the whole mth.. =)

i just trim my hair, and fringe.. did a hair wash and blow wavy.. hehee.. i love the hair wash.. the hairstylist massges me head that makes me fell asleep.. i hope hubby can do that for me.. hehehehe..

me and hubby are getting bck ag.. we have take things slowly.. at least, he will still keep contacting me.. hehee.. i miss him so much! we are meeting this friday and sunday... not so bad rite? i must get used to it.. last time, almost everyday we'll meet but now, only a few times.. but that makes me really miss him so much! hehehehe..

Love Notebook II

2010-02-06T22:46:00.001+08:00

Ella

continue from the last post.....

"Thank you very very much hubby for making my birthday very special and memorable!!" - Saturday, 2 Aug 2008

"to my frends that read my blog, thank you for ur advise! wateva i wrote here, was just my thoughts and feelings.. but wateva happen to me and evan, we will never be seperated.. we do love each other very deeply.. thank you frends for your concern! i love frends that care for each other.. i love you all!! THANK YOU!" - Saturday, 23 Aug 2008

"..I love my hubby so much.. i'm very fortunate to have him in my life! He got that characteristics that every girl dream for their bf to be.. he is one of kind! and i love him so much.. we help each other when money is a problem.. we don get a our friends to help us in our financial.." - Sunday, 24 Aug 2008

"..they will suffer a hurt ego, but no one will ever know and they will suffer in silence. The secret of the Leo is that they need to be needed.."- Thursday, 28 Aug 2008

"...he makes funny faces in the mrt! make me laugh till my tommy hurts.. hehe.. today, is a good day!! i love it! i enjoy it very much!! almost through out the journey, i've been laughing so much!! no wonder i look so chubby!!" - Sunday, 2 Nov 2008

"..i've to show patience, control my temper and sulk for the right reason.. but i've swore not to sulk for anything.. i wanna sincerely accept anything from my hubby.. even if he cheat on me, the reason behind it is i didnt do my best to make him happy...."- Sunday, 14 Dec 2008

my blog post became lesser and lesser but deep down, i know i love him so much.. i can't imagine myself without him.. i cant see myself in the future without him.. i can't endure a day without an sms from him..

this is how i reflect myself.. i read so much and realise that none of my promises have fulfill in our relationship.. especially, how many times i've hurt him..

this time, we will take things slowly.. we wanna save our money for our future and i'll control my temper and be a better person towards my love ones... i wont nag or mood swings when we didnt meet each other.. pls just send me sms or a call.. just don abandon me ag.. i really cant take it anymore.. this fragile heart have gave me alot of tears and flu..

i miss you alot hubby! i love u always.. stay in touch.. muack muack muack.. =)

Love Notebook I

2010-02-05T14:30:00.002+08:00

Ella

how much i love you since the beginning? i still love you now when we are separated, but how will i be when we are together ag?

From the past to present...

"i'm so lucky to have u too baby.. i neva felt so much love before this.. i will always treasure u ah.. i'll neva take u for granted narx.. u reach all my requirements.. except e age.. heex.. nvm ah.. u look very young baby.. really young.. dun worry.. no one can guess wats ur age.. heex.. muackz baby.. i love sooo muchie!!.."- Saturday, 4 Nov 2006

" i had fun teasing my baby at his hse ah.. haax.. i love to bully him.. heex.. he 's so cute..i lyk wen he stared at me.. heex.. got e magic feelin ah.. haax.. im so grateful to hav him le.. he's my dream guy.. wateva i do, i will never ask for break up.. i love him so much now.." - Wednesday, 8 Nov 2006

" HaPpY 1 MtH baby ! we get to noe each for 3 mths liao.. includes our sweet loving 1 mth.. full of sweet memories ah baby.. everyday we'll meet n go out together.. spend more time together.. heex.. i love u baby.. forever n ever.. muackz muackz.. hmm.. i read ur blog ah baby.. im very sorry to make u sad ah.. really sorry.. n idk y tis few days strangers got my number ah baby.. n i save number coz i dun wan to get messed up wif wrong names ah.. im very sory baby.. if i've ever received another unknown number.. im not gonna entertain it.. i promise ah baby.. really very sorry.. i didnt mean to hurt u ah baby.. i love u.. muackz...." - Friday, 10 Nov 2006

"today.. so sweet day le.. im at his hse le.. ehem.. we do smthg very loving le.. feel lyk im married liao.. haax.. i love e ring he gave me.. wen he's not beside me, e ring is wif me ah.. still feel close to him.. well, i stop here liao.. tcx.. hugz.. muackz.. =)" - Sunday, 12 Nov 2006.

"he bought for me dinner always.. never fails.. hehe.. baby, u are very good in takin care of me.. u r my Mr Prince Charming.. im e luckiest gal to hav u baby.. i will treasure u.. u r one in a million.. i see that u r worry abt me ah.. i'll be fine tmr baby.. i will start to fool ard u baby.. heex.. jus now, play 5 10 wif u.. im so happy narx.. u try to cheer me up.. i love e feelin baby.. its very sweet.. i wanna play ag.." - Tuesday, 14 Nov 2006

"Evan is my dream guy.. he's mine now and forever.. heex.. i stop here liao.. i miss my hubby.. i love u baby.. muackz muackz.."- Wednesday, 29 Nov 2006

"im sure he'll be my last guy in my love life.. i love him so much.. i hope nthg tear us apart.. every secs, i miss him a lot.. one day without him.. i'll cry for sure.. we've been through hard times together.. sometimes, im lyk a child.. mus be a hard time for him to cheer me up whenever im down.. well, i try not to be so childish over such small matter.. i love u baby.. thx for being there for me always.. i wanna apologise to u if i've hurt u most of time.."- Wednesday, 6 Dec 2006

"i love being wif u everyday.. is there any couple meet everyday lyk we do? lolx.. im e most luckiest gal in tis world.. everyday meet him.. so happy! my heart feels so warmth wif him.. sometimes late at nite.. i miss him so much till i cried lyk baby.. hehe.. im still childish ah.. but dunno y he still can tolerate me? heex.."-Wednesday, 13 Dec 2006

" when you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you..
when you're gone, the face i came to know is missing too..
when you're gone, the words i need to hear to always get me through the day..
and make it ok.. i miss you.."- Friday, 24 Aug 2007

" baby.. i really love the song u posted in e blog.. i really cried for it le.. sometimes, i would like to hear u sing that song for me sweetly.. it can be anytime.. anniversary? my next yr bdae? our marriage ceremony? hehe.. i really wanna hear u sing that song for me.. i love u baby! muack muack muack.."- Tuesday, 4 Sept 2007

"t first he asked me, will e smoke be big or not?? i said.. sure must be big le.. den he said wont la.. jus bbq little bit only.. not much smoke ah.. lolx.. but den... it really smoke out sia.. omg!! make my eyes wanna cry le.. hehe.. lucky his mum relaxing in e room watching tv.. if not, "ivan!!! wats happening?!! u wan e house to get burn ah??[by his mum]'' lolx.. after that, we decided to pack things up n do it at sembawang park!! shiok ah.. i enjoyed it very much le.. especially e big fire.. hehe.."- Sunday, 9 Sept 2007

"sayang, wishing u ag, happy 11mth!! i'm jus glad being with you.. for our 11 mth celebration, that would be ytd's bbq.. hehe.. we should do it ag some other time.. but this time wif more ppl.. hehe.. i love you forever syg!! muack muack muack.."- Monday, 10 Sept 2007

"for my weiwen laogong, u have stole my precious heart.. in the court order, u r found guilty.. u r sentenced to be mine for ur whole life.. with unlimited of kisses.. hehe.. i love u forever baby.. muack muack muack.."- Thursday, 4 Oct 2007

" i missn him alot.. he mus be slping now.. i wish i could slp with him all nite.. cuddle him.. hehe.. but that will only happen after i'm married to him.. haha.. i love him so so much.." - Saturday, 6 Oct 2007

"..like i said, i never regret being with u.. i jus wanna feel tt i'm important.. i noe as time goes by.. things will change.. if weather changes, we can also change.. but my feeling towards u will never change.. hehe.. i love u weiwen..." - Sunday, 7 Oct 2007

"Sayang.. Happy 1 year Anniversary!! i'm very happy that we've come this far.. i never know that i can last long with u.. hehe.. there's smthg i wanna write to u from the bottom of my heart.. i hope u like it..

when i first met you that day,
i was looking forward to meet u everyday..
when i start to have feelings for you,
i wanna love you the right way..
when i'm so fallin in love with you,
i wanna get closer and give my heart to you..
you make my heart smile and cry..
in reality, that's love suppose to be..
today, 10 Oct 2007..
all i need to say is..
Du Weiwen Evan is my best friend, my prince,
my lover and my husband-to-be..
i need you to stay by my side now and forever..
With all my heart, i've sweared you'll never be replaced..
I Love You Forever, Weiwen!
XOXOXO..." Wednesday, 10 Oct 2007

"... i love u syg!! thx for coming into my life.. hehe.. i'm not gonna let go of u syg..." - Thursday, 11 Oct 2007

"baby.. i miss you loads.. i'm sorry if i've treated you so bad past few days.. " - Thursday, 25 Oct 2007

"baby.. u're my 3rd ex bf.. u will always be my hubby from now and forever.. i dun wanna lose you.. i love u!.." - Saturday, 28 Oct 2007

"baby...please drink more water and take yr med...if u r not ok by tml...i will personally drag u to the doc :p....hehe...i love u forever baby.." Mondau, 5 Nov 2007

"baby.. we so in love.. i love you so so much.. muack muack muack.. i just cant get enuf of your 'la la la la'.. hehe.." - Wednesday, 7 Nov 2007

"we just celebrated 1 yr.. now, 1 yr and a month.. omg!! sooner or later, u'll see 5 yr anniversary.. hehe.. i hope that yr we jus got married.. haha.. well, baby.. i jus feel so lucky that i met you.. u are the outstanding bf i ever had.. though i make so much trouble here and there.. i'm sorry le.. i dont our relationship to break up becos of me.. i'll try to control my temper ok?.."- Saturday, 10 Nov 2007

"baby.. i'm so sorry wat i've said yesterday.. please dont be hurt ok? i always love u.. just prove it to me that your promises are true.. u know i dun want to be hurt ag.. i love u syg!! muack muack muack..."- Friday, 30 Nov 2007

"baby.. i'm so touch that u take care of me the whole time.. i love u forever syg! muack muack muack.."- Friday, 7 Dec 2007

"he's like a guardian angel to me.. sometimes, he can be a devil like lucifer.. hehe.. i just love him! never have i thought of finding new man.. only wanna find my hubby le.. i really cant live without him ard.. i love him.. i just hope this new yr will bring more enjoyable moments for us!.." Tuesday, 1 Jan 2008

"baby.. i miss you alot! i just cant get enuff to meet u le.. how i wish i'm old enuff to stay with u every day and nite.. hehe.. i love u baby!! MUACKZ.."- Thursday, 17 Jan 2008

" You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something specialI only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life " - Tuesday, 26 Feb 2008

" the more i miss him, the boredom i will be and den i'll start to cry for being alone with nothing to do at home becos i wanna meet him." - Tuesday, 4 Mar 2008

" .i love u ever since we're together till now and the end of time.. muack muack muack muack.."-Thursday,10 April 2008

"Memories are meant to be kept in mind, it is never kept in hand unless u want to remember them forever..

I cast my former love and found new love,
anything with the past, will be remembered and never to hold on to it,

Holding on, will be hard to love someone who loves you today..

Remembrance that's hard to throw away,

keep it where he won't get his tears away...

It hurts to see you keeping memories in hand,
But he will never give up to love you till the end.. "- Friday, 2 May 2008

" i bought a love box with love messages inside.. the purpose of it is that whenever he is feeling down, i want those messages to put a smile on his face.. remind him of me.. messages that will motivate him.." - Tuesday, 10 June 2008

"Our love is..
Like a Roller Coaster
There's ups and downs..
Sometime is hurts..
Most of the time, we are madly in love..

Love is abt Friendship..
Along our love journey, we still getting to know each other..
There are times that i want to take my own path..
But nobody can love me better than you..
i want to stick with you till the end..

Love is abt Happiness..
All your jokes and funny habits, put a smile on me..
You are always there when i need you..
You're my guardian angel..

Love is also abt Tears..
I love you till it hurts..
Sometimes expecting too much from you, it just didnt show up..
Deep in my heart, i cried when you are depressed..
I don't know how to make you feel better..
Cos my heart hurts when you're hurt..

Love is all abt You!
I can't keep myself away from you..
I'll always come find you no matter where you are..
It's all becos of you. i love you..." - Tuesday, 10 Jun 2008

will continue my love notebook later...

Hubby! i miss u so much... I'm feel very hurt without ur warm hug! :'(

Cold Period

2010-02-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

Ella

hubby and i have split up last friday, 29 jan 2010.. seldom contact each other since.. it's very complicated.. it's me again.. i have a hard time controlling my temper.. he suggested that we need to cool down for 1 mth just to reflect on ourselves and how we can actually make our relationship works..

i've been crying so hard that my heart and lungs was quite painful last nite.. it felt like something pressing on it.. i've never felt that in my entire life.. of cos, i cried harder becos of the body pain and the sadness.. i have breathing problem this past few days due to lots of crying.. i've grown a little skinny as i didnt eat pretty well..

i have no frends to let out my feelings and lend me a shoulder to cry on.. i do have frends but we didnt keep in touch, so wat's the point of telling them how i felt when they missed out a lot of things abt my lfie... so the only person i look for is Carisa, my colleague at work.. she's really a good fren.. i cried at work too.. she hug and pat me, let me cry on her shoulders and gave me advise and i do wat she told me and that is i've to listen and follow my heart, making the first move to sms him to make clear of his feeling towards me..

actually, not sure how i wanna reflect myself.. all i know, i've very bad temper.. i read up some articles on how to control bad temper and the difficulty is quite hard.. also i found that there's a medicine to actually calm urself and its called "Homeopathic Remedies".. they are natural, safe and gentle to use without being addictive.. carefully selected ingredients such as Nux vom, Chamomilla & Lycopodium relax the nervous system and maintain a calm, balanced state of mind while passive aggressive behaviour, flare ups and urges to "let off steam"..

i was thinking to do meditation or consult doc for the medicine above.. if i do meditation/yoga, i need weekend to be free cos mostly this activity will start on weekends at Community Centre.. if i choose the medicine, i can take it anytime i felt angry.. well, the most important thing is i don't want to be hot temper towards people i love..

i've read so many articles on how to control my temper, all they say is tell urself to calm down!! i cant do it!! when bad comes to worse, i need to go counseling.. which hospitals provides anger management? hmm.. maybe i'll search for them later..

gtg sleep, tmr,i've interview for financial consultant from great eastern.. i'm afraid it would be insurance agent??? oh well, i'll find out tmr..

Confess8289

2010-01-31T18:58:00.000+08:00

I hate the feeling that i'm going thru now.. Just dunno wat to do.. My heart is going crazy and tired.. My emotions is all messed up..

- Posted from Ella's iPhone

SHINee is Coming to Singapore!!!

2010-01-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

Ella

AHHHHH!! They are coming to Singapore this weekend!! I think i wanna take leave on that day to see them live at changi airport and lot 1, roof garden for the signing session..

Reference from Yahoo Singapore News:

For the coming month of February, Korean music producer Oh Joonsung will be throwing a two-day performance at the Esplanade titled 'Oh Joonsung Drama Concert - Music from Korean Drama Favourites'. Oh will be leading a nine-person member band, Green Cacao, and a local string orchestra to perform tunes to popular drama series like Boys Over Flowers and My Girl.

Various Korean acts such as Bobby Kim, Mario, and boyband, SHINee, will guest-star at the concert and perform a few of their titular tracks. Apart from performing at the esplanade for two nights, the young and effervescent SHINee will also hold a fan-signing session to meet with fans.

SHINee's music album, Year of Us will be sold at the fan-signing event itself starting from 9.30am in the morning. Only fans that have purchased the albums are allowed to queue for signatures. A limited number of albums will be sold at the venue to maintain exclusivity and only 1000 lucky fans will be able to get the signatures of their favourite idols.

Here is SHINee's itinerary for their visit to Singapore:

Arrival at Changi Airport
Oh Joonsung, SHINee, Bobby Kim, and Mario (via the same flight)
Date: 29 January
Time: 8.45pm

Location: Changi International Airport, Terminal 3

Year of Us fan-signing session
Date: 31 January
Time: 1.30pm
Location: Lot One, Roof Garden Level 5

Oh Joonsung Drama Concert - Music from Korean Drama Favourites
Date: 1 & 2 February
Time: 7.30pm (90 minutes)
Location: Esplanade Theatres on the Bay
Ticket prices: $150, $130, $110, $90 (Special promotional prices at $90 and $75 are available for students and the elderly)

Interested readers can visit www.sistic.com.sg to purchase tickets to the drama concert.

okiez.. my sister already gone crazy and excited abt them.. lolx.. i just wanna see them live cos i'm not going to the concert.. i bought the concert tickets for my sister for her birthday present.. hehe.. my sister wanna see them for the 3 days i think.. airport, lot 1 and esplande.. crazy fan!! hehe..

This weekend is also hubby's CNY shopping.. Well, i just wanna see them live for a short while and we willl have few hours more to do the shoppings.. hehe.. i hope hubby can come along.. hehe.. definitely, i wanna take leave on the weekends!!

A post on train

2010-01-20T07:34:00.001+08:00

Evan

Here i am posting a post on train...some how feeling quite tired...maybe due to the fact is only wed...some how weekend is crawling...hmmm...but come to think of it...2 more days to weekends...so hang in there everyone.

This is the new shoe i am gonna get ( white)...cant wait...hehe...my adidas shoe got stolen....damm it...so smelly oso got ppl wanna take...don understand...mayb will oso consider the slipper below...haha...or should i get this shoe (bottom)...hmmm

Gonna reach my work place soon...gonna get breakfast from old chang kee...hehe...hungry...a good breakfast to start off the day

Oopsy Daisy

2010-01-18T17:49:00.000+08:00

Ella

This is a song that i've been trying to tell u abt how i felt for you.. i know i'll hurt you ag..

Meat and Mittens

2010-01-18T02:23:00.000+08:00

Ella

Ytd, hubby and me went to Pasir Ris farmway 2, the Ericson Pet Shop, looking at some kittens and puppies.. I saw this British Blue kitten, the rare breed from Australia.. It was imported from Australia.. Hehe..

Hubby helped me ask the seller for the kitten's price and it's a boom in ur bank for this small adorable kitten, S$2,500.. Hehe.. Hubby asked a few qns which i didnt know.. He told me that he asked can import in the breed that we want or not? The seller said they can do it for us but need to deposit first.. He said if we want to buy the kittens today, the price is negotiable.. Hehe.. Probably, can only bargain $100 only? Hehe.. I didnt expect hubby to ask so much cos i only want to know the price.. Didnt know hubby can ask abt import kittens from Australia.. Hmmm.. I hope hubby can plan smtg surprise for me?? Lolx.. Maybe not.. It's quite expensive.. I'll work hard to save money to get one british blue.. It's so beautiful.. Hehe..

Oh well.. We played with the kittens awhile.. A lot of people went there on sunday.. Hubby enjoyed playing with the kittens and of cos, he like the playful one that played with his hands.. Hehe.. but if buying a kitten, he'll choose lazy one.. Hehe.. He prefer lazy cat at home.. Lolx..

After enjoying the day with the kittens, we went to marina barrage.. The last time we went there was a year ago, also near to chinese new yr.. Haha.. Maybe every yr once to go down to marina barrage?? Hehe.. Okiez.. Compare to last yr, this yr at marina barrage, a lot of people playing kites.. There were so many diferent kites!! Hehe.. I miss playing kites... The last time i played kites was when i was in kindergarten.. My late-grandfather make one for me.. It's was a great day and i do miss him a lot.. Haiz..

After a sightseeing, we planned to watch movie, the spy next door, starring Jackie Chan.. Hehe.. The movie was nice.. I cant say it's bad or very good.. The actions wasn't much, comedy was nice.. Hmm.. Maybe the whole movie doesn't really suit jackie with the kids.. I still love him in Rush Hour movies.. Hehe.. Oh!! Before we catch the movie, ytd was our FIRST TIME TOGETHER eating at Burger King.. Hehe.. I know that's crazy thing, but really our first time together at BK.. We both do eat at BK AS INDIVIDUALS but Ytd was our first as a couple eating at BK.. hehe..

I love my off day!! Really had a great time with hubby.. Hubby make me so happy with his naughty behaviour and full of craps.. Hehe.. I love him!! Gdnite!

- Posted from Ella's iPhone

Sweet Memories

2010-01-15T21:31:00.001+08:00

Ella

Memories that i'll never forget abt my hubby..

The bugis incident, i was stalked by a indian foreigner.. Not sure if he's a bangla or not, but i know he's not a local.. He stalked me from orchard mrt to bugis mrt stn.. He keeps staring at me and blocking my way.. I started crying and called hubby to come find me at bugis mrt stn.. That point of time, hubby works at sim lim sq.. He rushed down and hug me.. Ask me if that bastard still ard.. He was directly standing in front of me, talking to a citibank salesmen.. Hubby grab him by his left hand and that bastard start to struggle to escape from hubby's arm.. Since hubby learned some martial arts in the army, hubby moved so fast that i don know wat he done and saw hubby pinned him on the wall.. Almost choking him to death!! Crowds controlling hubby to release him and report to the police.. Some of u might be thinking, why that bastard stalking me?? Wat i was wearing? I was wearing jeans and a sleeveless shirt.. No breast cleavage showing.. I still don know why he wanna stalked me for.. This how protective hubby can be..

The next memory i'll remember, when i was very sick, he would take care of me.. Feed me my medicine every 4 hrs.. He didnt go work that day just to take care of me.. Hug me the whole time and shower me with all his love.. Of cos not everytime he skip work whenever i'm sick.. I can take care of myself.. When i'm sick at home and he's at work, he would call me every 4 hours to remind me to eat my medicine.. He knows i'm a lazy person to eat medicine... This is how much hubby care abt me

Almost everyday, he would come find me and accompany me just to keep my boredom away.. This i know, he'll never cheat me cos he doesnt have the time to cheat on me and also in his eyes, i'm the most beautiful woman.. No other woman can ever be replaced.. He never felt so in love before.. Sometimes, he'll accused me if i'm a witch that put a spell on him.. Hehe.. he always misses me a lot.. He would call me and say i miss u, i love u.. He have been doing this since we started dating till this day.. I know some couple would do this on honeymoon period but to us, everyday is like a valentines' day.. Sometimes is a broken heart day and whenever we split up, we will still get bck together the very next day cos we miss each other so much..

Whenever i'm alone at home during the weekends, tuti will accompany me to sleep at nite.. Since he have gone to heaven, hubby would accompany me till i fell asleep.. Hubby would hug me, tugged me inside blanket, and let me hug my boster.. Den he would stroke my hair till i fell asleep and den, he went home.. This how hubby let me had my gdnite and sweet dreams..

When i was at school or work, hubby would find time to pick me up and send me home.. When my work suppose to end early but smtg comes up and have to stay late, hubby would wait for me for that few hours to let me finish my work.. Even though he have work the next day, he would still wait and den send me home safely.. This is how much he would sacrifice his time for me..

3 yrs ago, i make a wish on my birthday cake.. I was so heart broken at that time.. I wished that someday, a good handsome man will come into my life and shower me with love, care for me, protect me and be faithful to me like a guardian angel..

Hubby is my guardian angel.. God have Answered my wish and prayers.. Hubby is one in million!! A legendary good man.. I love him forever!!

- Posted from Ella's iPhone

Its been some time.....

2010-01-10T12:58:00.001+08:00

Evan

From the previous post....u might have notice that we have already separated....but in the end...the very next day...we are back again....lolx...i know what u r thinking....i know...i will not explain all why and what happen...maybe some other time...hehe...

Another new year has begin and new goal have been set...there are certain number of stuff that i need to do...but again i will not say it here...till i have accomplised it...den i will post it...lolx

Happy today as going to pick up baby at 1800 instead of 2130....so glad she need not do any OT...lolx...

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Splitting up

2010-01-04T00:12:00.001+08:00

To all our readers, me and evan are splitting up for the time being.. We've been thru this a lot of times and this time is serious.. I've to make a tough decision whether or not i'm getting bck with him..

I'm the one to blame for all this.. Evan is a great guy.. He takes care of me very well.. He understands me.. He love and adore me a lot.. I'm the one who always screw this thing up.. I left him at the place we argue and he suggested that we split up.. And i'm not sure if i'm getting bck with him.. I will have my answer by the begining of feb..

I will still update this blog whenever i can.. I miss him and love him a lot but it just so hard to work on our relationship rite now.. I've never done anything right in my whole relationships..

To evan,
I've never regretted being with u.. But i'm afraid i make a regret decisions.. If i were to get bck with u ag, same thing would happen ag.. I've never treated u good.. If i don get bck with u, i'll miss u a lot.. U're the only man that i know, able to give me the love i wanted.. Deep down, i know i love you.. Is just the way i treated you.. Difficult for me to change.. I'm sorry and see u next month.. Tcx..

- Posted from Ella's iPhone

F*** Mood

2009-12-31T08:11:00.001+08:00

I'm going work now.. Waiting for my shuttle bus.. While waiting, would like to blog on the go from my iphone.. Glad there's blogger app.. :)

I'm very tired, didnt had a good sleep last nite.. And today, i'm working till 11pm... The feeling is sux!! Haiz.. This is how i'll celebrate my new yr.. Tmr, i'm still working in the morning and after work, still have to go out for late movie and dinner with my love ones.. Tmr, We will have a good time and i've to come back to work the next day and they will have a darn good holiday!! Haiz..

I've no holiday mood.. Everyday, is like any other day.. No life kind of people.. Seeing people postings abt their holiday mood, it just feel sux for urself cos u're working like shit at work.. U can understand how bad mood i am now.. The work load is a lot and have to close almost all the orders by tonite, before NEW YEAR!!! haiz..

By the way, abt the recent christmas, i've the same mood as today.. Hubby bought for me a white gold necklace from Mintmark & Co... It's beautiful necklace but i was so shag to show my happy expression cos I WAS WORKING ON THAT FUCKING DAY!!!

Just fuck everything la.. Work and go out, have fun and enjoy the holiday with the rest.. Happy New Year, 2010!!! My new resolution will be GET A BETTER JOB!!

- Posted from Ella's iPhone

HM Chalet BBQ

2009-12-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

Ella

that's the huamin boys, their friendship is more than a decade.. hehe.. looking forward to the future with their kids standing in front of them?? hehehe..

me and hubby stayed at the chalet for 2 days and 1 night.. i'm always looking forward to the bbq.. i love bbq cos food are always great.. hehe.. well, i can say i have good time there.. able to communicate with them a little bit.. it was my first time meeting all of them.. i'm quite shy, so most of the time, i'm entertaining myself in the room with the laptop.. surfing the internet and watch movies... i didnt spent much on fun activites.. hubby had a great time there.. i don need to state more details here.. the bbq started on the 2nd day.. the chickens and satay taste great.. wonder where they order it? hehe.. that nite, i saw fucai teaching hubby and the rest abt a Breach game with poker cards.. is very interesting game.. not sure if you ever heard of it before.. we went home that nite, and hubby taught me how to play it.. it was very interesting.. i wanna play it but this game needs 4 ppl.. so, i hope i can play if i get the chance.. hehe..

i'm hoping to meet them again in the future with more fun activities and everyone could get involve in it.. it was a great chalet!! looking forward to meet them again sometimes.. =)

Unable to get to sleep

2009-12-14T01:37:00.000+08:00

Evan

The time is 0112...i cant seem to get to sleep...but is to be expected...from what i observe...every Sunday night i always had difficulty getting to la la land...there might be a few reason to this.

woke up too late on sunday .
monday blues
weather is too darn hot
ain't have enough of fun yet.
too much things to be done.

there might be more...but these 5 points are enough to keep me awake...

If u are a constantly follower of our blog...u might have heard that we are now officially known as "I-COUPLE". we both have i-phone , and is jail broken..yeah...but the damn thing is ...it is a jailbreak tether...meaning to say...once u reboot the iphone...i will need the software to run it again..go google "blackra1n" .... hopefully the creator can fixed this problem asap...haha..but i heard that if u own a mac...u can use a software called "quickpwn" ....supposedly it will over the tether jail break...but that is what i heard thou...haha...

a week ago have past since my bro ' zida" wedding...our little kid have grown up...got a pretty wife aka mahjong queen...haha...feel happy for him...i believe his eye brow is twitching right now...as he is have a good and relaz honey moon in taiwan ....well..he deserve a well rested holiday..as he really stress out to the max...preparing all from his wedding to his new house...

a week back...my baby just bought a new comp...damn is good..and cheap...i am so jealous..haha...feel like getting one of my own too...haha....but if i am getting..i might as well aim good...quad core is what i aim for...haha...have to start saving for it...haha...or maybe a I-7...hehe

just had my ncs (pmo) team dinner on friday...held at vienna ( i think that is how is spell)...haha...at united square...fun bunch of guys...thou i had eaten at there twice...but i still loved it thou...the fun is good..haha...and I've been issue a laptop from ncs...apparently my team lead which is his off day...when down to hub and get it for me...how nice of him...haha...but is super big and heavy...i got no intention of bringing it to work...haha

ok...that is for now...a very long post...haha...

Carry me out every morning until we are old

2009-12-11T11:05:00.001+08:00

Ella

A very touching story.. hubby told me abt this story when we were just get together..
*found this story from http://l-ongenough.blogspot.com/
Read it with my blog background song by Richard Marx, you may cry while reading it.. Enjoy!

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy..I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife.

When we were just married, my wife said,Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so.I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.?I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her.

At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner.I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body.

This was the means of my entertainment.One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious. When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth.

But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question.

This so-called answer made her angry..

She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day.

But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce.

From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully.

Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy.

Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.

She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms.

The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded.

The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out.

He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway.

Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs.

Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce.

My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

iCouple

2009-12-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

Ella

last wednesday, i just bought an iPhone but we went thru lots of problems.. the reason to get iphone is becos hubby is using iphone.. hubby suggest let's have couple phone, so ok lo and we have to go thru so much trouble to get it done!

firstly, we went down to plaza sing to make enquiry abt recontract my broadband and iphone.. this customer service lady, told to sign up early cos it's cheaper.. so i sign up the Mio Home Bundle that includes 6mbs broadband, residential line free incoming and outgoing, mio tv and 15% off for any mobile plan.. i also enquired abt iPhone iFlexi plan,$56.90 with $288 iPhone 16GB and need to do number porting from starhub to singtel and i know it's $100 off for the iPhone, so i'll just need to pay $188 for the iPhone 16GB.. i have another singtel number with student plan, i don like the number and also don't want to terminate it cos got early termination fee, contract not ended yet, thinking to use my current starhub to switch to singtel.. well, previously, hubby is the one using that student line number... so the retailer told me to do number porting must go down to Hello! Singtel and bring a photocopy of my mom's i/c cos my starhub number is under my mom's name.. so i sign up for my mio home first with installation date on 8 dec 2009..

just 2 days ago, hubby and me went down to somerset, Singtel Comms Centre to get iPhone.. all the documents, i have.. and we go thru another problem, they need letter of authorization from my mom and i'm under 21,so i cant have 2 mobile number in an account unless i upgrade my student plan to iflexi plan with a $100 fee .. this wasn't mention from the retailer!! and also i wont get $100 off for switching to Singtel cos that was a promotion item just ended.. we didnt even know that was a promotion item!! of cos i was upset, hubby was complaining and the customer service still can smile and laugh.. i feel like smacking her face!! do they know we are already pissed off?? hubby wants to speak with the superior and they were so defensive!! ended up, getting the iphone paid $288 already included the student plan termination fee of $100!! Suppose, i should pay $388 but becos i just sign up mio home, it's $100 off.. hubby felt guilty becos of him, we have to go thru all this problem.. Student line contract not ended and he itchy hand want change to iphone cos his working teams all using iphone.. haiz.. that means he owe me $100 for the student line early termination fee.. but look at it this way, i still pay for my iphone $188.. hehehe.. so no problem lo..

i've already fax my LOA to the Hello! Singtel.. my student plan SIM card lost.. not sure where hubby left it.. again, have to go thru so much problem with Singtel cos phone agents stated that we can get replacement at any singtel shop including the exclusive retailers.. but when we went down to our nearest singtel exclusive retailer for SIM card replacement, the retailers said that don do replacement, on Hello! Singtel able to do it.. and hubby call bck singtel hotline, complain for all the wrong information they have given us and talked to the manager too.. and this evening, they deliver my SIM card to my house.. hehe.. my number porting will be done by Tuesday morning.. hehe.. i also reshedule my installation date..

Evan:

i feel gulity leh...because of me...baby have to go thur so much to get same phone...i am most grateful....i have already prepare a complaint letter...which i will email to whoever is charge...and make sure that whoever give us all the wrong info...make it up to us..or rather my baby....

i jail break it with blackra1n....but is a tether jailbreak...meaning...as long the power is off...u need the programe to turn on again...yes..u heard me...i know is very troublesome..u might ask yourself...why go thur all this effort...well..i can say...is worth it...trust me on this

for this past few weeks...i been very busy at work..due to the fact ..my col is on leave and reservist...so tat leave me...haha...next week..got a new guy coming in...so finally...some one to help me out...haha....but i am oso used to working alone...cause my few previous job..i am alone supporting too...

i notice i have been in a bad mood...impatient...and moody...don know what is wrong with me? can any 1 tell me please?am i too stress? i'm oso not sure....hope that this well not continue on....

over and out

Gone Crazy

2009-11-29T19:49:00.000+08:00

Ella

Sorry peeps for not updating my blog... i'll try my best to blog whenever i can.. my lappy is currently dead for awhile.. maybe hubby will repair it or get new desktop.. hehehe..

above photo, that cute precious kitten is Shinie! hubby found him at my void deck.. he was only few days old and i took care of him for 6 days only and he have gone to a better place with someone who loves him more than myself.. i cried a lot.. i miss him already! sadly, i didnt get to see his eyes open.. wish he could see us and know that we are the one who take care and love him.. =(

hmmm.. now, i'm at work with my colleague, Carisa.. just the 2 of us doing OT and hit our target earlier.. slacking and going crazy later.. lolx.. with her around, i can hit my target very fast de.. she's my motivation at work... lolx.. when she's not ard, i'm fucking bored lo.. brain shut down.. hehehe... but lucky, got new colleague in our team.. Jayden! the small boy which i've just started to bully him since he came.. hahahaha.. i'm the most baddest girl in our team.. i think he sure hates me lo.. oh well.. i'll try my best not to bully him so much.. hehehe... and last but not least, Fizah have change to pinoy maid at work.. she like to imitate pinoy accent.. i just feeel like throwing her in the bin.. quite annoying.. hehehe.. well, this are my fun colleagues! the noise maker somtimes.. =P

aiya.. i got nthg much to blog abt lehx.. me and hubby are just like that lo.. he also long time never update.. ass hole man.. heheeh.. i think he'll be mad at me when he read this.. sorry hubbby!

that's all i can blog for now.. Carisa cant wait to read lo..
To Carisa: nthg much la.. i'll try to update some interesting stuff for another day.. hehehe..
tcx.. gdnite!!

In a blue mood

2009-11-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

Ella

sianx!! tmr work.. haiz.. i don feel like working @ starhub anymore.. boring!! i cant wait to get out of there.. hmm.. hubby helped me send out my resumes for me.. haha.. he send resumes to a job that is impossible for me.. just trying some luck.. haha..

today, me and hubby edit photo for our blog.. heheh.. the photo above, nice? i'm very talented rite?? hehehe.. actually, it's easy to do le.. anyone can do this.. hehe.. thanks to hubby for installing photoshop cs4 for me.. i need time to learn more abt photoshop before i can move on to another software.. hubby, gonna find a good video editing software for me to learn.. hehe.. he knows my talent very well and he asked me to do well in photoshop first and then, i can try do video editing.. hehe..

my next thing to edit is Iskandar's pic and hubby's iphone wallpaper.. oh! today, hubby just got his new phone le.. it's iPhone.. next mth, i'm getting an iPhone too.. although, i don like the keyboard very much, i think i'll be able to adapt to it.. hubby wants me to get a couple phone.. well, u know, iphone's bluetooth can ONLY paired with another iphone.. so i'll be getting one next mth.. hehe.. might considering to add GMASK for iphones.. so, i'll be looking forward to next month.. a lot of thing going to happen on december! i'm so excited.. hehe.. tcx =)

Iskandar Putra

2009-11-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

Ella

2 days ago, my newborn nephew was just born on 5 November 2009... His full name is Iskandar Putra Bin Irwan.. he's so cute!!! i just love his eyes and the thick hair.. hehe.. i took some pics of him but i cant upload cos the connection is very slow.. please check out in my facebook.. i didnt edit it cos i'm quite tired and sick today.. hubby pick me up from work at 1600h.. i took half day from work.. hehe.. i really fell asleep in the bus.. lucky hubby's chest is like a pillow.. i love it! hubby also kiss me to wake up.. so sweeeet!! =)

tmr, i'm going to visit iskandar again.. hehehe.. got to buy a newborn present for him and my sis-in-law quest too.. bottle brush and baby bottle soap.. hehe.. i cant wait!! i need to rest early already.. really got bad flu liao.. tcx..

Stupid Mistake

2009-10-27T15:49:00.000+08:00

Ella

ARGH!! i hate when my laptop is reformated!! i need to rearrange my docs and desktop icons and install back software.. earlier, i just created a new user account for my sis and her desktop has my stuff.... i wanna clean away the desktop icons from her account, so i go back to my account to remove the dektop folder to my account and somehow, it's copied and i have double of each application on my desktop.. i deleted the copied one and everything was gone!! all my short cuts are gone!! my msn messenger have to download window installer that have so many things to install then, i can upgrade it to windows live messenger.. so much hassle!! so many things to upgrade.. feel like throwing my laptop away!! now, i've to find software to retrieve back my deleted documents..

this few days, i'm so lazy to go work!! everyday, doing the same thing.. this kind of job should give to old people.. easy and boring!! i need some interactions with people, customers and some new activity/challenge to do.. why working is so boring??!!! can work be fun?? this is very bad for our minds.. stupid job!! i cant wait to get out! my parents think that sitting down in the office is good.. not tired.. not under the hot sun.. FUCK la!!! my parents don think wat i want.. i prefer working outside than sitting there with very cold air-con.. i rather walk or running around than sitting in the office staring at the computer and close work orders the whole day!!! once awhile sitting in the office is fine... everyday in the office, my brain can shut down cos of boredom!! haiz...

this coming weekend, hubby and me will go down to bugis to take our photoshoots.. so i'm gonna have a free time to edit some of the photos.. i hope they got give a cd if not, i've to install back my printer software to my laptop.. sianx... my photoshop and brushes also need to install bck.. this things really make me upset.. my mood wont be very good.. feeel very very sianx.. haiz..

now, i'm so hungry but not sure wat to eat.. i feel like eating bbq grill chicken chop but i got not much money to buy... this whole week i must control my cravings.. it's kinda torture for me.. everytime, no money to eat, i'll munch some junks or go to sleep to control my hunger.. i owed some money to my family.. i borrowed money from them and later i get my pay, have to return it to them with additional expenses for them too.. well, you see... it's kinda biased.. when my brother doesn't have money, my mom can give him and wait for him to return it.. here i am, with hourly paid, my transport is killing me.. working in the office can easily get hungry cos of the air-con.. and my mom will keep asking me for money.. always by the end of the month, the frequent question will be ask is, "When's your pay? your pay comes in already? how much you gonna give me? Have you pay your bills?" i hate my agency for processing my pay.. it takes so long.. i hate end of the month!! i wish money can just fall from the sky when it's end of the month.. i'm so broke.. i hate it so much.. =(

Arm is getting better le...

2009-10-17T15:33:00.000+08:00

EVAN......

Been some time i post again....i believe for those that read....u guys should know the events that we have gone through...haha...there is good times and bad times...haha...but i always treat everyday as a learning experiences...new thing to learn every single day....be it in relationship or friendship or even at work place...i always believe..." one must live to the fullest in each and every day" ....so when u are old and look back...u wont go thinking.." damm..i should have done that instead..."...

forgive me for being so sophisticated on this boring sat...haha...feeling boring....nothing much can be done...thou they are many stuff waiting for me to complete and task to be done...taking my own sweet times...haha..some times...things can only be completed at the very last min...hahaha....

hurt my shoulder on Thursday...i think is due to bad sleeping position...haha...or it could be that my body is getting old...haha...either way...it is alright now...tried on the salonpas...haha...baby help me paste it on...not bad...it helped bit i guess..haha...only that the patch that i stick it on is dam itchy...driving me nuts...haha...

got to stop here...when we got back the photo shoot pic...will post it up here..so till den....see ya....got tons of stuff to do...busy busy busy...

Sick Period

2009-10-16T00:38:00.003+08:00

Ella

Thursday, 15 Oct 2009

today, i'm off day and i spent the whole day at hubby's place.. we had our breakfast at my neighborhood coffee shop.. i was very hungry and it's my first time eating 3 prata and also hubby's first time seeing me ate 3 prata and that's alot for me.. hahaha.. we head back to his place but before that hubby go clinic to get MC cos he didnt go work today, fake sick, and wanted to spend the whole day with me as it's my off day.. hehehe.. sweeet rite?? but hubby got really sick at noon cos he shoulder was aching very badly till now..

in the morning, we slept till late noon.. hubby was hugging & sang me to sleep, Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx.. i really enjoy that very much! and i think i make his arm numb or aching that cause his back shoulders aching.. he didnt tell me abt it cos he look at me sleeping so comfy & sweet... i did move away from him cos i know it will numb his arms but i expect him to hug me again later and give me a head pillow to sleep on.. the whole time i didnt sleep on any pillow.. just felt like he didnt care how i sleep.. the whole bed was in a mess, and i'm sleeping on most messy side.. sianx.. i'm actually a light sleeper, i know wat's going on around me.. just 1 hour before i wake up, he pull me to sleep on the pillow and gave me the boaster.. so far, that 3 hours i slept without pillow.. haiz.. nvm.. i realized that hubby always wake up, i thought he's not sleepy and don't want to sleep with me but i thought wrong, he was actually in pain, the back shoulder aching..

just before i wake up, i felt wet in my panties.. lolx.. i know wat u guys are thinking.. i'm horny?? hahaha.. nope, i got my period.. lolx.. i was totally forgotten abt my period date.. so i woke up and sat down on his bed with my leg supporting my butt so that i didn't leak any blood on his bed.. i asked hubby got any kotex left, he was searching for it in his whole closet and found none.. it's kinda emergency, i told him to go buy for me as i cant move my legs, if not, it will leak out.. haha.. it's heavy rain outside and hubby rush down to near-by shop to get a kotex for me.. he called and asked,

Hubby: baby, there's so many, wat brand u looking for?

Me:just take any brand, got Kotex or sofy, whisper.. hmm.. anything la.. just take for me the Night one.

Hubby: okiez.. you want sofy?

Me: okiez.. is it Night?

Hubby: hmm.. i don know lehx.. Eh! got write Safeguard for Heavy/Night use..

Me: okiez.. take it..

hehe... i didnt know he was so daring to buy it for me.. so proud of him! i asked him whether he feel embarrassed to buy it or not? cos i saw a potato chip in the plastic.. he answered, "No.. it's just a kotex and it's my first time buying it for my girl friend".. i feel sooo goood, too bad for his ex-GFs that they didnt get treated this way.. lolx.. so i also asked "why got potato chips?" cos i thought he must be embarrassed to buy and wanted to cover it up and he answered, " cos i paid by NETS, minimum must be $5.. so i add potato chips for you" hehe.. so ok.. he's telling the truth, cos i know he don't have cash in the wallet after paying the for his medicine in the morning..

well, when my period came, i get upset over little things but is really something that bothers me alot!! i woke up at lunch time, me and hubby happily playing with jorel and den his mom bought rice for him.. he ate it and never ask me whether i'm hungry or not.. quite pissed off at him.. i told him abt it, and then, he asked me wat i want to eat.. i also cant decide.. i want fried rice but i don want to go out as i have menses cramps and he said he'll go buy for me and at the same time, i dont want him to go cos i'll miss him alot.. i don want my off day to spend without a single second without him cos it' seldom to be with him for the whole day and my off days are random.. really wanna spend good time with him.. i can see hubby gonna get pissed off as he doesn't know how i felt.. i told him to get delivery, KFC.. hubby tried to do online delivery and registered with my name.. and i also got pissed off abt it cos he spelled my name real full name wrongly.. being together for 3 yrs, he cant spell my name and i was very hurt that i was abt to cry.. so i just told him to forget abt the delivery and go buy my lunch.. he was getting ready to go out, suddenly, i miss him alot already!! i wanna follow him.. so i called him, and he came back to the room.. he told me, he was just bathing with his wallet and phone in the toilet so that he can straight away go out after wearing back his clothes.. hehe.. but in the end, we didnt go out cos his brother going to northpoint and asked to buy fried rice for me.. also sadly, the fried rice is not nice.. i didnt finished it.. also quite upset by it.. but the recovery, we watched "The Ugly Truth".. it's a very good show!! i lean back on his chest and watch it with a hug around me and i also gave him a shoulder massage for him.. he still feel pain and doesn't want to say it but he said it out when going home.. haiz..

i realized that whenever i spent the whole day with him, always get pissed off over little things.. i'm not sure if it's always abt my expectations or just coincidence it happens that way.. sometimes, when i wanna spent good time at his place.. i always pray that it'll turn out a good day but it didn't.. it's rarely that i will have good time with him at his place.. the last time that i had a very good time with him at his place for the whole day was on my birthday.. the things that i'll get pissed off easily is abt lack of affection.. i want his cuddles, kisses, hugs, showing his concerns like my hunger and anything that is a sense of love touch.. i know he loves me alot, but i want his love to be in actions.. actions speaks louder than words rite?

oh well, overall, i don really have a very good day with him.. i would say it's just a normal day for me.. i love when he hug me to sleep for awhile, he kisses me and entertain me.. hehe..

Our 3rd Anniversary 10 Oct 2009

2009-10-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

Ella

I have 3 special events for our 3rd year anniversary! 1st event was @ Night Safari Halloween theme, 2nd event was having dinner @ Chocolate Buffet, Fullerton Hotel & 3rd was this afternoon, Romance Session Photo-shoot @ The Beauty Box.

All photos are uploaded in my Facebook but i'll upload SOME here too.. hehe.. my internet server now is quite lagging so probably will upload it another time..

Pre-Anniversary Event 9 Oct 2009 : Night Safari Halloween Theme

this year's halloween theme wasn't so good as last year's.. hehe.. this is our pre- anniversary event.. so i went there with Yanti and my little cousin, Lili.. Lili always shouts and got scared the most! haha.. she's afraid most of the ghost characters there and the ghost & monster are targetting her.. hehe.. Yanti was having fun but she also got scared by some.. lolx.. i also got scared by the hunchback ugly looking lady and the chinese zombie.. hehe.. hubby was the coolest guy cos he didnt get scared by them.. i think the ghost feels sianx too.. lolx.. i love taking photos with the female characters like Cinderella with the glass shoe stab in the head, the Bunny Killer Girl, an Umbrella Lady with extra mouth on her left side of the face & last but not least, the Red Cheongsam girl with a man's head.. Hubby's favourite is mostly the clowns,devils & traditional ghost characters.. hehe..

Anniversary Event 10 Oct 2009: Chocolate Buffet @ Fullerton Hotel

before going to the Fullerton for chocolate buffet, hubby accompany me to the salon for 3 hours to do my ceramic perm.. hehe.. i paid S$268 including the Water base lotion.. i think now, my perm is disappearing soon.. thinking should i go back and ask why?? hmmm..

After my perm, we head down to our Chocolate Buffet @ Fullerton Hotel.. It's $S40++ per person... enjoyinh the chocolate buffet! there are cakes, puffs, marshmellows, fruits and also hot chocolate!! hmmm.. YUM YUM!! we ate till our hearts content..

Post- Anniversary Event 11 Oct 2009: Romance Session @ The Beauty Box.

Today, wake up early to go for breakfast and rush down to Bugis cos we booked @ 1130h and we were late for 30 mins... hehe.. i have to do the make up first.. curl my hair and make a natural make-up look.. both myself and hubby had a good time together!! we laughed, posing and SMILE Always!! hehe.. we have 2 casual outfits, 1 x our own couple shirt and 1 x semi formal outfits.. i wore a black dress knee length and hubby wore a black long sleeve with black coat!! he loook so amazing and charming!!! hehe.. the photographer always ask him to smile.. lolx.. well, it's natural smile.. i love his smiles in the photoshoots.. after the photoshoots done, we'll have to come back 2-3 weeks later to collect our photos.. haha.. cant wait to see them!! hehe.. okiez.. after the make-over, we went to watch movie, Cloudy with the chance of meatballs in 3D.. the movie is good! i love the food weather.. it's delicious and FREEE cos it falls from the sky.. lolx =)

alright! sorry peeps.. i cant upload any photos here yet as my internet connection is slow and not sure why... so keep coming back for any updates! take care & gdnite! =D

Kumar Drag Queen Comedy!

2009-10-07T21:21:00.000+08:00

Ella

All this 3 videos are so true!! LOLX!!! Enjoy.. i love Kumar's comedy!! =D

Shag of targets

2009-10-06T22:35:00.002+08:00

Ella

hey peeps! sorry.. i didnt update the blog for so long... i've been very busy at my new work place @ Davinci.. not really say busy la but must hit my target by the end of the day.. from ayer rajah cresent (buona vista), packed my computer for shifting to davinci builiding at tai seng drive (paya lebar)... before i moved to davinci, i have to hit my target cos my average percentage was below 105%.. for 2 days, i did 400+ work orders.. i was totally shag! stared at the computer and my hands got numb but my typing speed is getting faster anyway.. hahah..

at davinci, i've received training on AOD(Automatic Order Distribution).. using internal server to distribute work orders.. no using paper! save the tree!! hehehe.. this time, we have hit 510 mins.. it's also equal to 160 work orders.. hmmm.. today, i able to hit my target.. okiez.. enuff abt my work thingy!!

this coming weekend, i have big plans!! hehe.. firstly, i'm gonna do hair perm and celebrate my 3rd year anniversary with light!! light's gonna bring me to chocolate buffet @ fullerton hotel.. i think most probably i will help him pay cos he spend quite alot on me last few days.. hehehe... my pay haven come in yet!! stupid asshole agency!! they didnt expedite the salary!! i need to pay aug bills.. now, it's going to accumulate with the sept bills!! i'll never gonna find job thru agency again!! payroll very sloow!

meanwhile, hubby have to give me pocket money and i'll return it to him.. on 11 oct, hubby booked a romance make over photoshoot package from the Beauty Box Studio @ north bridge road.. sweeeeet rite? hehehe.. i like his idea of making our anniversary so exciting!! haha.. well, it's worth our relationship for 3 yrs and a gift for ourselves is a romance make-over photoshoot.. hehe.. i really cant wait for this coming weekends!! =)

Every things is alright....

2009-10-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

Evan

every thing is fine now....but abit hard to explain in here....if u want to know more detail on what happen, u can contact either both of us on our mobile, we will be glad to explain it. Thanks for all yours peep's concern.

Today is a busy busy day, ever since 1 of my col left....been busy....but come to think of it....time files fast when u are busy...so not too bad....baby been feeling moody today...mood swing...hopefully every thing will be alright when she start work at new location...thou now cant acc her to work in the morning...but at least can meet her after work....so i will be traveling down to raffles mrt....

another 2 more months..SOE will kick off...definitely there will be lots of complaint from the users...haha...even i don have the admin rights...and they expect me to stay there and solve comp cases if i don have any admin rite...how ironic....haha....but will see how...the organizing is so bad...up till now ...nothing much has been confirm...haha....window xp to vista....den vista to window 7...lolx..

Just wanna disowned them

2009-09-23T23:26:00.001+08:00

Ella

okiez.. most of you will be thinking who is "them" that i wanna disowned? it's my parents! just few days ago i asked for forgiveness and now, they give me big problems! i love them so much and how could they hurt me by saying smthg ~~nasty~~ abt Light??!!

i'm very angry with them.. this is his first time visitng our relatives and of cos he doesn't know much abt the culture.. Light might have said smthg wrong but he doesn't know it, and my parents are upset abt it!! me and light have been together almost 3 yrs, and they are doing this to me?? i thought they should have accepted him now.. i was so pissed off with my parents and i shouted to them that i don't want to live with them anymore.. it hurts me so much!! i just wanna get out of the house and ~~stayed with light..~~

i told him abt wat happen.. i told him that i wanna stay with him but not at his place.. i don like so much noise.. especially Light's brother and nephew Jorel.. always shouting across the room.. it's very noisy.. i asked light to find a rental room and stay together or maybe let's just get married! i don care abt wedding ring or dress.. i just wanna live on our own.. i don want to live with my family.. they are so unreasonable.. i was ~~begging and crying~~ like a kitten and light disagree with me.. wat have i done wrong?? i'm doing this for us.. i don't want my family to ruin our relationship..

i'm getting sick of everything!! I hate both of you and my parents!! I hate you EVAN!! till now, i don know what u really want from me!! Fuck you!! I'm sick of this.... :'(

For my dearest hubby

2009-09-21T15:43:00.000+08:00

Ella

"Although I'll say i hate you now,

though i'll shout and curse you out,

i'll always have love for you,

because i'm a girl. "

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri

2009-09-21T00:43:00.002+08:00

Ella

Selamat Hari Raya to all muslims in the world! today, simply just had a family lunch gathering with Light.. i'm very happy this yr cos light in is in the photo of my family.. i feel like he's part of the family now.. i'm so grateful to have him in my life.. hehe.. but he didn't wear any hari raya costume this yr again.. i wonder when he is gonna wear it and have a couple costume for hari raya.. hehe..

just like every yr of hari raya, we ask for forgiveness from our parents, elders, husband & wife.. i asked for forgiveness from my parents as i know how much i've make them hurt this yr.. i regretted it.. i'll try my best to be their good daughter and achieve their expectations from me.. i also asked forgiveness from my elder brother and my sis-in-law because i might have spoke some unpleasant speech and bad actions towards them.. i don have husband to ask for my forgiveness.. hehe.. but i did apologise to him for wat i've done to him ytd.. =)

To my loving, caring & strict parents, i love you as much as i love my own life! you guys are the one who brought me up very well.. you nurture, discipline and love me and you're still doing your responsibilities no matter how old you get.. i know my rudeness i've done to you is not your fault in bringing me up a rude daugther.. it was all abt my temper and influences.. i love you both so much! i promise i'll try to be goood a daughter for you!

To abg Irwan, i love you alot! You're the only closest, coolest, crappy brother that i could never ask for a better brother... although, we are not father blood related but we are born from our great mom that take care of us together..

To kak Rohailah, you're the best sis-in-law cos you're spontaneous, funny, kind and caring! the one and only elder sister i can have! I love you so much! For my little un-born nephew, Putra Iskandar, don be naughty ok? Aunt Ella cant wait to meet you in November!! =)

To Yanti, i love you alot.. you're as precious as little sapphire blue in my life.. you're my fav! always knows how to entertain me with ur silly expressions and thoughts.. be good girl ok? don make mama & papa heartache again.. All the best for your PSLE! Hwaiting!!

Lastly, My dear Evan, I still love you no matter how many times i ran away from you.. My eyes only attracted to good looking man, My mouth always speaks the truth from wat i see or hear, it maybe good and bad, My ear only chose to listen to sweet words, compliments, My hands just cant stay still, always want to hurt others but in playful way, my legs just love to run away when i have problems that i cant answer but i know, in the bottom of heart, it always choose to love you more and more.. i just cant stop any of it.. and i still love you in the present and future..

i had a great day today! Family gathering with Evan, watched movie, The Ugly Truth, it's DARN GOOD MOVIE!! you should watch it and last but not least, me and Evan walked at the Fort Canning Park.. the last time we walked there was in November/December 2006, i remembered it was going to rain and i always wanted to kiss my love under the rain and Evan is the one who fulfill it! from that day, i know he's the one for me! i love him so much.. =)

tmr, will continue our part 2 of Hari Raya.. My family, evan and myself visit my relatives in Singapore and a few from Indonesia that just arrived in Singapore.. =)

Our New Baby

2009-09-13T15:39:00.001+08:00

Ella

Hey!! we bought Blue Sony T90 at this Sept Comex 2009! this is our 35 mth present! i feel so touch when he reply the letter below.. i'm very childish rite? hehe.. okiez, finally, we have our own digital camera!! hehe.. we shared money to buy it, and this is our new baby! his name is Bluey!! it's 12.1 megapixel! Bluey have smile shutter! whenever we smile, he takes the shot himself! i love Bluey!! hehe..

ytd, my mom, yanti and me together go to Geylang bazaar for Hari Raya shopping! i invite hubby along but he got headache and was quite disappointing but sickness may come anytime without expecting it.. so i understand.. hehe.. i had a great time with my mom. i didn't meet my mom for 7 days as she working 2 jobs and i'm working too.. we didnt meet each other very often.. hehe.. i miss her alot!

okiez, at geylang bazaar, i've planned to buy Kueh Raya ( cookies for Hari Raya).. i spent almost S$120 on it.. my mum helped me paid S$42 for the Kueh.. cos i didnt withdraw much.. total we spent S$162 on Kuehs.. hehe.. i didnt bought so much varieties on Kuehs.. i only bought 2 bottle of Popiahs, 3 bottles of Chocolate Macaroons, 1 bottle of Kueh Dahlia, 1 bottles of Chocolate Cookies and 2 bottle of Nutella cookies (i think).. oh well! all of them looks and taste good! hehe..

last but not least at Geylang bazaar, i planned not to buy any new hari raya clothes until i saw this great looking Hari Raya costume with Cheongsam buttons and it's cheap, S$30, cos i don want anything fancy this yr, all i cared abt is hari raya food, like the cookies i bought.. hehe.. okiez, my mom bought the black color costume for me cos sadly, the white has no size for me.. hmm.. my mom paid them cos she wants me to have new one.. i was like half hearted and she was like " okiez, get the size for her.." in the end, i have new hari raya clothes.. Thanks to my mum.. i felt bad that she paid for it.. and also my mom bought new curtains for my room.. again, i didnt planned on buying it but she insists.. so i just bought a simple and elegant curtain that cost S$39.. that's it for our Hari Raya shopping! =)

after our shopping, we went down to Ang Mo Kio for breakfast.. my mum asked me to bring Evan along to join us at Ang Mo Kio's Banquet.. we talked and laughed together.. and surprisingly, my mom invite him for Hari Raya family visit at our family's kampung in Johor next monday.. i felt so happy! it seems like he's part of the family now.. next monday, 21 sept 2009, my parents, my brother and sis-in-law, yanti, evan and myself, together will go Johor to visit my relatives and my grandmother.. i cant wait for that day! i'm very glad my mom invite him.. it's very special meaning for our relationship.. =D

Royal Pirates

2009-09-10T22:13:00.001+08:00

These are a few mtv or rather song i wanna share, intro by baby...haha..not bad...

tml will be going down to comex le...hehe..getting T90.....hopefully have the color we wanted, if not will be disappointing. I will be expecting alot of ppl there ba...sure to be alot of pushing and shoving around...haha....but let pray and hope tat by time we reach there...wont be so much ppl around...haha....cant wait for tml

Reply to Letter

2009-09-10T22:06:00.002+08:00

Dear Ell@

I am a morning person..meaning i like to be and stay quiet in the morning

i am only active from noon onwards till late night.

You u are born under the sign of the lion, but u are a little kitten in my eyes,

which need to be protect and very cute.

When a guy falls in love, he will be dumb so it;s not really my fault if i can't take hint.

As a matter of fact, the more dumb i am, the happier u are.

I do sometime give u compliment, but i don wish to give u too often fearing that u might be used to it.

today is our 35th month together, make it short...1 more month to 3 years..

i am really really happy that we have been through so much and understand each other alot.

You know what i want and what i think.

i know what not to do to piss u off.

I will always be there for u, (rem bugis..hehhe)

i love u forvever

signing off

EV@n

Apologize Letter

2009-09-04T08:17:00.002+08:00

Ella

Dear Evan

i'm sorry that i ruined your mood in the morning.
i'm sorry that lately, my emotions make you mad.
i'm sorry that i'm born in the horoscope of leo.
i'm sorry for demanding more in the relationship.

because every morning, i want to see you hyper but you are not a morning person. i understand.

because maybe, i'm having PMS as my period day is expected to come next following week. i thought you are aware of it since we've been together but you aren't.. i'm not sure if you have become stupid or just doesn't care abt it.

because i want to be praise or compliment whenever i meet you for the first time of the day. how do i look today? i thought you know it but you aren't.. you're just Pisces, the day dreamer and doesn't like to give ppl praises..

because i just want you to love me more.. i don need words but actions.. if i really demand so much for it, i'm sorry to give you a hard time.. but if you dont know abt it, i guess you should take the initiative to find out or show me you can't be bothered abt it..

as time pass, i'll change.. i wont bother you again with my silly emotions.. i'll stop expecting more from you.. we can be together but our hearts are far apart.. i don have any intentions of finding other man cos it's still the same thing could happen.. if you want to leave me cos i'm writing so many negative, your wish is granted.. i don need another man in my life again if my life is so hard to handle..

Crazily Pretty

2009-08-29T15:59:00.002+08:00

Ella

i just finish my task for today.. sorry.. i'm at work now.. hehe.. sianx lo.. saturday work but i finish my task for today.. hehe.. i can only hit 146 work orders.. no more service call work orders to do le.. now, slacking lo.. light wont pick me up from work today.. he is watching movie with his frends, The Final Destination 4.. i don dare to watch it again.. the last time i watched FD 3 was with Sherlyn.. my whole body shivers when i'm out of the cinema.. well, guess where we watched it? at clementi.. the old haunted look cinema.. the whole cinema was only for us lo.. just the 2 of us in that cinema.. haha.. when i first watch FD 3, i get very cautious ard me.. i won't walk under construction, i wont sit under a ceiling fan (at 24hrs kopitiam) etc.. i hope light will enjoy the movie this evening..

this morning, yanti intro me new kpop boyband, DNT (Dragon N Tiger), hehe.. they are very young.. one of them same age as me.. haha.. he's very very CUTE!! his name is Park Byung Kyu, February 11 1989, 178cm height.. very TALL!! haha.. paiseh if he's my boyfriend... lolx.. just kidding la.. he's just my new pop star crush.. lolx..

the above mv is by DNT-Crazily Pretty.. like me la.. i'm pretty rite? haha.. i'm dreaming away~ lolx.. the song keeps playing in mind.. i love the song.. hehe.. okiez, DNT debut their album last yr and i didnt know they exist till today.. i guess they are not very popular yet.. hehe..

i have 2 more hrs to go off work.. go home and breakfast.. i pity yanti.. she breakfast alone on weekends unless i'm not working.. i can't reach home on time.. breakfast is at 1912, most probably i reach yishun int only.. haiz.. my salary still not in my bank.. i hate job angecy!! what took so long to process the time sheet?!! i need money to pay bills before they accumulated to the next month bill.. idiot!! haiz..

now,what should i do? play facebook quiz or games? hmm.. still unsure.. nvm lo.. i can surf internet anyway.. nthg to do liao.. hehe.. i guess that's what's all about for today.. tcx and enjoy the video! =)

Are you out of your mind??!!

2009-08-25T17:29:00.008+08:00

Ella

okiez.. my title for today is a bit awkward.. lolx.. last nite, i went to watch movie with light, the proposal.. i say, the movie isn't as good as what happens in vegas.. i'll rate it 6/10.. cos the falling in love part, wasn't very nice, the comedy, is very good and the storyline, is fairly good.. hehe..

before we watch the the proposal, i breakfast at LJS.. and discussing with light abt relationships, marriage and being a young parent.. i do have friends and cousins that are single mother, and happily married.. i envy them for having a baby cos i want to have it too someday.. before, i wanna blog more on this topic, i hope the readers could forgive me if i've offended you in anyways.. one thing abt blogs are just personal journals that have affected in our lives and wanted to share our personal opinions and thoughts.. you live your own way, i live my own way too.. i have no grudge against anyone of you.. i'm just sharing my personal thoughts..

okiez.. abt marriage.. why do they have to rush to get married? got pregnant and no choice but to take the responsibilities, it's understandable.. i've nothing to say abt that.. if you're financially stable and plan to get married soon, that's good for them.. finance is important to start a family.. but to those who have nothing but married and able to make a grand wedding at hotel or resorts, where do they get that money from? legal loan? how do you meet the requirements? at least, you must earn S$25k - S$30k per annum.. illegal loan?hmm..from parents? aren't they ashamed of using parents money to pay for your own wedding? if parents are supporting them, they are lucky.. but what kind of image have you done to your family name?

there are other things i wonder abt too, how much do the love birds understand abt each other? have they seen their ugly side before? are they able to tolerate their craps? are they able to meet their demands and expectations? do they share their feelings and thoughts with each other? not hiding anything from each other at all? are they able to sacrifice their pleasures for the other? if they have been living together for more than a year and have done everything in the qns above, that's a very mature relationship.. Congrats! it's not that i'm jealous of them getting married and having a child.. i just wonder abt what are they thinking? what makes them rush of getting married at such age where u'll have to learn to think and be an adult?

if talking abt love definition, i remember back those days when i was a young teen dreaming abt love and understand the meaning of it.. i think i was very childish.. till today, i don know what love is.. feelings dont last long.. my feelings for light neither is going deeper nor fading away.. my feelings for him is balanced, i hate him sometimes but i still cant let go of him cos there is still love for him.. almost 3 yrs being together, I've learnt to understand his point view of thinking.. i'm a young teenage lady that needs to learnt how to be an adult soon when my light is already an adult.. i'm starting to think like an adult when light always giving me so much abt his thoughts and feelings ard him.. when kids talk abt love, it just reminded me when i was young talking abt love.. love isn't abt how much you understand but it is how u much learnt from it..

the most precious person that i treated her like a sister since childhood, my closest cousin, age 19 that got married and having an unborn child.. her husband is much older than her, same age as light.. i was shocked that she's married without telling me.. i thought, is she desperate to get married? is it a shot gun marriage? but i thought wrong.. my aunt told me that her husband family wanted them to get married cos to save their family image(very strict religious family).. the family doesnt want people to "talk" abt their close relationship.. i'm sure some people don understand this culture.. for a muslim, man are not allow to touch woman unless he marries her.. the reason behind it is becos when man touches a woman, it'll lead to undesirable activity like sex intercourse.. i'm glad she's married and have a good proper wedding using their savings and a little support money from family, but i think her husband pay most of it.. a man should show an image that he could afford the wedding.. i didnt had the chance to attend her wedding cos she is married in Penang, Malaysia.. haiz.. maybe a year or 2, i would like to visit them in penang.. they already had their own house.. hehe..

i've dreamed to get married soon too.. but money is hard to save cos you have unlimited wants.. i've discussed with my mum abt me and light if we are meant for each other.. my mum wants me to save money to get married at the age of 24/25 and skip the engagement part cos it's a waste of money when me and light have our promise ring and being together for more than a year.. it's already like an engaged couple.. thanks to God for giving me the man of my life and thanks to my family for their support and acceptance in my relationship with light..

Free @ work

2009-08-23T17:26:00.003+08:00

Ella

now, i'm at work having a great free time.. ytd, i hit target but not today cos the software, Falcon, is slow and always hang.. me and my colleagues restart comp and the falcon too many times already.. so our Team Lead told us no need to hit target for today.. lolx..

i've been playing facebook quiz almost the whole day.. i slack a lot today as i'm very tired cos of waking up in the morning.. during fasting mth, our lunch break at work is go to sleep in the meeting room.. hehe.. feel so shiok!

today, light isn't going to pick me up from work cos he got RT at khatib camp.. hehe.. he didnt fail his IPPT ok! he didnt attend it, so he got charge and go RT.. hehe.. although, my light is fat but his stamina in physical training is like an athlete lo.. hehe.. i miss him a lot liao.. after i break fast, he will come find me.. i cant wait to meet him!

another 25 mins, i'm off work le.. cant wait to get home and break fast.. my mom cook my fav meal.. hehe.. nowadays, my office is like Genting Highland.. VERY COLD!!! some of my colleagues wearing glove, thick jacket and my hands are very very cold till i cant feel my fingers.. haiz.. i wish there's hand dryer on my desk.. i hope they can change the temp of the air-con.. is freeezzing cold.. brrr~ oh! i gtg now.. signing out! =)

Ramadhan and Hungry Ghost Month

2009-08-21T23:34:00.002+08:00

Ella

Happy Ramadhan Month to all Muslims in the world! hehe.. i got half an hour more to 1st Ramadhan and 5 hours more to get up in the morning to eat, it's called "Sahur" and so that i wont be hungry the whole day.. the trick for me for fasting without feeling hunger or the growling stomach is eating Dates after having a meal in the morning.. it totally works for me.. i didnt feel hunger or anything.. thanks to Allah for giving us Dates that only available near the fasting month.. hehe..

later hubby, will come over to my house with a packet of prata so that i don need to cook for "Sahur".. i told him that he doesnt need to come over my house cos my mom already cooked for me and i just need to reheat it but he insist.. he still wanna come over with the prata at 0430h.. isn't he so sweet?? where can i get a boyfriend that able to wake up so early in the morning to feed me so that i wont feel hunger during fasting? i'm one in a million! i must the luckiest girl to have him.. hehe.. today is hubby's friend, Wei Lun, Birthday! Happy Birthday! hubby and his friends are now at Sembawang Park to celebrate Wei Lun's birthday.. i hope they are having fun and safe..

this holy month and ghost month together, i think this is the first time happen in my life.. haha.. Ramadhan is heaven's gate open but Hungry Ghost month is the hell gates open.. not so bad la but i'll get a lot of flu cos of the smoke and little ashes.. haha.. nthg to be scared abt.. they are just roaming ard the globe to see their families.. no harm rite? hehe.. superstitious during ghost mth? hmm.. i'm not very superstitious person but i do respect their beliefs so if you accidentally step on their burnings, please apologize or they will be very unhappy abt it.. hubby didnt practice any burnings during this period so i hope he still thinks of his ancestors especially his late grandparents.. even a little prayer from the heart, it bless their soul.. it's the thoughts that counts..

oh! i got to go sleep.. i'm gonna be a zombie at work after my Sahur cos it's also most time for me to get ready to work.. sianx... =( gdnite!

Tiring Day!!!

2009-08-20T21:19:00.002+08:00

EVAN

Back to blog...my star has been been working near to a month??...feel happy for her...haha...and her working place is near to mine too...haha...so we can go to work together and go home together..subjected to changes...(if she off on weekdays..den too bad)....

I would like to start off with complaint on my toopid lappy...if any 1 know any cheap ship tat repair laptop...please let me know...haha...kinda of ironic...considering the fact that i fixed pc and laptop for others too...haha...but trust me...the parts in my faulty laptop is not tat simple...i head down to SLM ( u can ask Mr Google if u don know wat SLM mena..lolx) ......to scout for cheap repair service...but all cost at least $150 and up...so i got 2 choice...either i dismentle the system fan on my own...and bring it down and ask if there is a same type...or i just use the money and buy a good vga card...after tat..i can play games on it...YES!!!...my lappy is meant for games...hahaha...so if u have a better idea..do enlighten me...haha

Today is my 4th session of RT....NNOOOOOO!!!...i did not fail my IPPT if u are wondering...i did not take it..so i got charge...and force to take RT...haha...i tot i would be alone..lucky for me..i met my ex col...from LTA...haha...and the best thing yet...after RT...he can sent me back home/..hahha....shiok ar!!!...haha...another 4 more session and is my IPPt so wish me luck..haha...

comex is around the corner...and this year..me and star are buying t90 ( hope i don get the model wrong) togther...haha...i still might consider buying quad core...hehe...tat is subject to changes...haha... so look out... COMEX 10th sept to 13 th sept...so start saving...haha...

lastly i wanna intro some song that i find nice...hhhaa....

so enjoy the song...and tml is TGI friday....hahaha.....ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND!!!!

Off day

2009-08-17T14:41:00.004+08:00

Ella

today, i'm off work.. last friday, i finally hit target.. i'm quite happy.. hehe.. i'm counting down to my salary day.. not sure when i'm gonna get my pay.. lolx.. first thing, i wanna buy when i get my pay is sony camera but i'm not sure when's the next IT show.. i've to check suntec convention website for upcoming events.. =)

ytd, light was so upset with his fujitsu laptop cos it's gonna die soon.. it was my first time that i try not to get affected by his mood.. i tried to comfort him.. i feel that this few days, i'm becoming a bit more like him.. i've become more sensitive when he doesn't talk cos i thought he's mad at me.. usually, when i don talk to him, he will think that i'm sulking.. hehe.. i'm becoming to understand what he have gone thru.. and he is becoming to be irritating like me.. disturb me all the time and say "cos i love you" or "cos i miss you".. most of the time, when i miss him and love him, i love to disturb him and he got influenced by me.. hehe..

another hour, i'm going out to meet light after work and give him a hug.. hehe.. time flies so fast.. i wanted to enjoy my off day watching Sweet 18.. it's a korean drama.. the show is almost like princess hours.. hehe.. my next day off is this Wednesday.. looking forward to it.. tcx!

Blogger is Back!

2009-08-11T21:05:00.008+08:00

Ella

At work,Starhub Ltd as a Service Provisioning Consultant.

At the Lounge resting, after playing 8-ball Pool for so many rounds

Light look so cool with his cue! hehe.. i snap shot when he shoot the ball *kwang Kwang kwang*

StarLight

My 1st birthday gift from Light. I wore this to Pulau Ubin with Light for the Thrilling Camp. haha..

My 2nd gift from Light. Light chose this outfit for my casual wear. He wants to change my styles. hehe..

uploading some pics for the past few days =)

Yeah!! my blog posting look normal.. if you having posting problem, press Ctrl+F5.. hehe.. i can upload my pics and edit my text.. hehe.. last sunday, 9 august, was singapore's national day and light invited me to go gathering with his friends at Lex's working place, recreation lounge.. there's karaoke, pool and billiard room.. hehe..

i promise light that i wont 'merajuk'.. there were 3 times, almost going to 'merajuk' but i overcome it.. haha.. i enjoyed playing pool with light and others.. i'm a fast learner and i won a few times.. lolx.. this gathering, i didnt feel awkward cos i can tell that they trying to speak english whenever i'm around.. they did a very good effort to speak english! *Applause* hehe.. i'm looking forward for another gathering with them again someday.. hehe.. i didnt take much photo at the gathering.. sorry!

btw, last saturday, 8 august, me and light have left a national day message at marina sq atrium, " Happy 44th Birthday Singapore! We are Singapore, this is my home, where i belong. What do you see? count on me and shine with me Singapore! We Love You, Singapore!"

today, i took MC.. met light at yishun mrt to go work together and hubby feeling very sleepy to go work and he tempt me not to go work.. he's such a jerk.. hehe.. so i didnt go work cos of him and also my gastric pain.. the feeling of gastric pain was on/off and lucky, i took MC cos when i reach his house, my gastric pain was bad.. if i went to work, i'll be suffering at work.. lolx.. we had our mcdonald breakfast, watch spongebob squarepants *lolx* and a good afternoon nap..

thanks hubby light for taking care of me today! i love you! muack muack muack!

Saturday at work

2009-08-08T14:13:00.002+08:00

Ella

haiz.. so sianz le.. i don feel like working rite now.. haha.. today is saturday, and i'm working.. still got target to hit.. so far, i've not hit target yet.. sianx lo.. i cant wait to finish work today.. i wanna go out and play.. lolx.. sound like small kid ar.. hehe..

my blogger at home smtg wrong, cant upload pics and add color to my text.. blogger!! pls fix it.. thank u!! another 4 hours to go out of work.. today, i try to target my goal, 120 work order.. yesterday, so disappointed lo.. i think i'm over ambitious ba.. nvm.. today, my goal will be 120 or more if possible.. hehe.. i gtg now.. continue my work.. hehe.. tcx.. i miss my light so much!! =)

PH please come quick

2009-08-04T00:31:00.002+08:00

2 days ago was Star's 20th birthday....finally she is no more a kid...haha....has to think and act like an adult...lolx...but i still want her to sometime act bit childish...but just abit...haha....as u can read in the previous post...she has simply sum up on how we spent her birthday...haha...too bad thou that i cant get a windbreaker for my self...haha...but is ok...i will find a better one....

Some stuff were not explain in the previous post...

1. During the camp at ubin...thou i wanted to do all the activity tat we tot of...but as expected...screw up fariy...appear...when we reach the camp site...we tot that we had a perferct place to rest...but who now...2 toopid uncle came and set up camp beside our shelter...don they feel paiseh...as night approach...both of us felt sleepy...and got nothing much to do...other den finding stuff to burn...haha( that was the fun part...camp fire)....i did not really want us both to fall asleep...as i felt it was unsafe...(blaming the 2 toopid uncle)...so we decide...ride back to jetty...(thanks to ubin's info)...haha...managed to catch a baot back...

2. During the night ride...haha..i can sense that star is feeling scare...haha...whe nwe reach a juntion...and i told her...that i don seem to know if i should turn right of left...she totally lost it...haha...tat where i had to pull her to one side....and calm her down...haha...told her to stay cool..and trust me..haha...(i been to JCC leh ....lolx)...haha...

3. On friday night...(31/07/09)...after sending her back to home...i quickly went to meet chun jui..haha..lucky for him..he help me get a cake...haha..so i manage to rush back to star house...and with a birthday cake...wish her a happy birthday...haha...(thanks to chun jui)...how can a birthday be complete without a birthday cake..hahaha....but we were to full to eat..i tink most of the cake were eaten by her sis (yanti) and maybe her friends..hahaha...

Recently there have been many weird comp cases for me...haha...lucky i have settle zida's network problem...so i left my bro and ah bi....haha...sianz...

to those that read our blog or blog hop...and hapeend to know how to solve this problem....do leave yr comment..haha...thanks you.

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computer have network..able to read email from window live mail and access to msn messanger...but cant use browser....and running on windows vista home edit....i have both I.E and firefox...so if anyone have any idea..to leave yr comment...haha

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Right now is 04/08/09 0027....and i have been fixing the toopid hp comp...with a toopid backup system which when u used it to back up...u cant retrieve yr data back...i am feeling super super pissed off...so is there any1 out there tat have actually use a hp backup file system and no problem to it...please let me know...or is there any other way to read a *.fbw file?? feeling pissed off rite now..and tml still have to wake up early to work..sianz

Chapter 2 level 0

2009-08-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

Ella

Thank you for all your warm birthday wishes! i'm officially 20 this year.. no more 1 in my first number for age.. hehe.. Chapter 2 level 0.. lolx.. no such thing as level 0.. hahhaa.. this blogger still giving me problems.. i cant upload photos.. Fixed it Fast PLEASE!!

last firday, hubby bring me shopping after work.. i was very shag and hubby bought so much stuff for me as a birthday gift.. hubby bought for me Nike sports wear: top, pants and wind-breaker, Giordano long shirt and 3/4 pants with belt, Cotton long shirt with long sleeve and beautiful sleeveless V shape top.. i wish i can show you the picture here.. hehe.. after the shopping, we ate dinner at Breeks..

finally, yesterday we went to Pulau Ubin.. we planned some activities but we're too tired too carry it out.. lolx.. but we make big camp fire.. it's something that i always look forward in camping, CAMP FIRE!! i just love to play with fire.. hehe.. soon, both of us getting sleepy and he decides to go home cos he feel unsafe there as i'm the only female and also nothing much to do.. he called his fren "Ubin" (just a nick name cos he was grow up in Pulau Ubin), asked him when's the last boat in Pulau Ubin and it was at 12am but have to pay $30 (12 people price).. at 2100h, we rushed and pack our things up.. we rode our bicycle in the dark road and of cos hubby was holding the torch light.. it was very thrilling and adventure but at the same time, first thing i'm scared was getting lost and secondly was "ghost".. in my heart, i said "please don harm us, we just wanna get home.." hubby kept talking to me and i kept replying him.. it's very shag to talk and cycle cos there are few up slopes and i've been panthing alot.. hehe.. last friday, my mom called and talk to hubby just to tell him to protect me.. hubby promised my mom that he bring me home safely.. i'm so touched when he delivered his promises.. i'm glad my love life is so good to have a gentlemen and a promising man that delivers everything a woman dream of.. =)

hehe.. okiez.. when we were riding the bicycle and trying to remember how to get back, i was panic cos i'm very scared of getting lost but my heart tells me to be calm and my mind is thinking a lot how to go back to the jetty! hubby was so sweet when he asked me, "trust me ok? just be calm.." hehe.. he can be the sweetest guy at random occasion but most of time, he's crappy and i still love him alot.. hehe.. we did it! we reached our destination and i felt better and i still love the down slopes that we've gone thru.. i just love the breeze.. hehe.. we wasn't so late to catch the boat and we just need to pay $5 for 2 people cos there are others going home too.. hehe.. we reached changi village, wanted to buy Nasi Lemak packet to bring home and eat.. hehe.. i slept over hubby's place after watching a documentary dvd.. we were so shag but it's the best thing i've ever experienced in my life.. though we didn't do what we have plan but i feel that building camp fire and riding bicycle back to Jetty at night in the dark was very exciting adventure and thrills! i love my birthday! thank you hubby! =D

Fun Colleagues

2009-07-30T21:12:00.002+08:00

Ella

okiez.. my blogger posting still cant see my text formatting buttons even after upgrading my firefox 3.5 vers.. nvm.. currently, i'm working at Starhub Ltd with 6 mths contract.. i may choose to extend my contract after 6 mths to permanent.. hehe.. well, i'm still considering cos i just started work.. today is my 2nd day of work.. i've great colleagues.. hehe.. they are fun, outgoing, kind and very patient with me cos i always asked alot of qns whenever i'm in doubt.. hehe.. Starhub Ltd need people!! it's S$7/hr.. you can earn S$1400 and above.. 5 working days rotating shift.. i'm currently under training at Buena Vista which will be closing soon.. all of us will be moving out to Payar Lebar, The Nobel Building.. it's a new building! very spacious and clean green.. i cant wait to go there.. hehe.. My day at work is doing great.. although there's smthg i don understand, but i tried to figure it out myself.. hehe.. now, i'm looking forward to go work.. haha.. my birthday is my off day and i can go CAMPING at Pulau Ubin!!! i miss camping so much!! hehe.. cant wait to get my stuff prepared.. haha.. blogging off now.. so sleepy liao.. below are some enquiries if you are interested to work.. tcx!!

Requirements to work at Starhub Ltd
- are you able to work at Paya Lebar?
- are you comfortable working rotating shift?
- are you willing to work on Public Holidays and Weekends?

If your answer is ALL YES!! please contact me!

Working hours
- 5 working days: 3 wk days & 2 wk ends OR 4 wk days & 1 wk end (this is not choice, just FYI)
- working 8.5hrs (excluding break): 0830 - 1800h, 1400 - 2100h.
- S$7 per hour, 1 mth= S$1190 w/o OT
- OT is 3 hours.. wait!! don feel sianx.. there's OT rate! contact me if you want to know more... hehee..

More OT, More Money!! i'm gonna earn S$1300 in August as i'm working on National Day!! Yippee!! Shopping Spree for me!!
i wanna get more OT but not always.. my body need rest too.. hahah.. one of my colleague earn up to S$2.3k because of OT!! she's SUPERB!! Wonder Woman!! hehe.. Contact me if you are interested! Starhub need "committed" people! =)

Good Times

2009-07-28T01:32:00.004+08:00

Ella

finally the blog is normal again.. hehe.. i'm so happy.. alright, i've not received any calls from the internship program =(.. i continue sending resumes since last sunday, 26 jul.. yesterday, i went for interviews with Haifa.. hehe.. she's a great friend! we talked abt a lot stuff, the good old times.. hehe.. we looked for jobs together, watched Ice Age 3 at orchard cineleisure and have a good dinner at sakura cuisine northpoint.. hehe.. sounds like we are dating NOT.. hubby was quite upset cos he thinks i'm dating a guy.. well, the guy is, Haifa.. so childish and i still love him alot.. hehe..

tigger is still missing.. i don know where i could find him but i prayed someone to adopt him before anything could happen to him.. i miss tigger a lot and is just fated for me to take care of him in a short period of time..

nowadays, i envy those who are married young becos they can live together and having a baby in their arms.. the babies are so adorable!! i still have to wait for my turn.. haiz.. but good thing is, i don need to think abt baby getting sick and their expenditure.. hehe.. i can have all the money to myself and spend it wisely.. haha..

Baby Jorel, the Hammie (Hamster), always smile whenever he saw me.. hehe.. he's very comfortable with me.. sometimes, i'll play with him on the bed, chase him, play hide-and -seek, clap hand when he done smtg good and do the baby talk which i sound really weird.. haha.. i miss him cos i'll seldom visit hubby's house and sometimes, he sleeps early too.. hehe.. he can say 'bye' when people is leaving.. Hammie is a fast-learner kid! hehe..

blog off now.. i need some beauty sleep.. tcx!

Wicky wicky WEIRD!!

2009-07-21T21:53:00.004+08:00

Ella

okiez.. there's smtg wrong with blogger posting format.. it' so wicky wicky weird!! looks so messed up.. does this happen to everyone's blog or only mine?

yesterday, i got thru my 2nd interview at Hilton Hotel.. there were 2 rounds of interview.. 1st round of interview was with the HR manager, Mr Lincoln.. he's very smiley person and my interviewer wants to see more SMILEY for their F&B manager, a French Man!! firstly, there are 9 people; 4 malay guys and 4 indian girls and myself..

there were 4 people didnt get thru the 2nd round of interview..left only, 1 malay guy, 3 indian girls and myself! =) so we were quite shock to see ourselves got thru the 2nd round! Congrats to all of us! hehe.. we were discussing that maybe the HR manager is only looking for good SMILES and good looks... i agree! cos i know i have great smiles!! LOLx..

it was very nervous that we have gone thru the 2nd interview with one the F&B manager, Mr Thomas, he's local.. the HR manager didn't let us go interview with the French Man cos of his french 'essence'(i hope i got the right meaning).. haha.. he's afraid we dont understand him.. Mr Thomas look quite fierce.. not very smiley person to me.. hmm.. but i tried to smile alot when i make a conversation.. hehe.. now, waiting for result.. i'm not expecting that i'll get in cos it's quite a tough interview.. wishing all the best for me! hehe..

recently, yanti showed me a music video by a korean celebrity, Wheesung, sang a song by Craig David, Insomnia. Craig David personally asked Wheesung to sing this song in Korean Version.. It's GOOD!! hehe.. i likey likey!! And Wheesung have my hubby's EYES.. when i see him, i think of my hubby.. haha.. i hope my hubby can sing like him.. lolx.. enjoy this video by Wheesung- Insomnia!

Miss & Good Luck

2009-07-17T22:40:00.004+08:00

Ella

today is my last day of work at SGH due to H1N1 is decreasing and they don't need temp staff anymore.. i worked only 4 days at SGH, got to know my colleagues and share some laughter with them and today is the last day of work, and i miss them already! They are the one who guide me a lot at the reception of Admission Office.. thank you AO colleagues (Nara, Lily, Aidah, Clara, Nora, Quek, Susan, Genevieve, Tommy and others) and Andrew (AO Leader).

during my working days at SGH, last wednesday, 15 july, went to the internship seminar that only last for less than an hour and yesterday got thru my 1st interview with PVR(Premier Visione Resource). Finally, today i got a call from PVR and congratulate me that next monday, 20 jul, in the morning is my 2nd interview at Hilton Hotel where i'll be working if i'm selected.. =) i already had the thinking and feeling that i'll be working at Hilton Hotel if i'm selected and never know that today Hilton Hotel have chosen me for interview.. hehe.. i hope i'll do well for my last interview this coming monday! wish me good luck! hehe..

Thanks to Allah for blessing me alot this month, although i got a temporary 4 days job at SGH with great colleagues and gain some experience and today, Allah have gave me a big opportunity to reach my goal.. Thank You!

Working life

2009-07-14T21:16:00.004+08:00

Ella

shag shag shag.. i;m very SHAG! i 'm lack of sleep.. during my super holidays, i slept and woke up late everyday day! and now, i've to wake up at 0530h to get ready by 0630h and ride MRT with hubby to work.. hehe.. everyday, i can meet him to go work together but i always feel sianx when i'm alone after that.. hehe.. My work timing is 0830-1730h, but sometimes i've to work till 1900.. i got extra money for that.. hehe.. then, i'll reach home probably at 2000h, if i'm hungry and have extra money, will go town with hubby for dinner and reach home at 2200h.. so this 2000-2200h, i'll be very shag.. hehe..

my job scope is doing reception at Admission Office,Singapore General Hospital.. i helped patients to get registration Que number and collect their admission form to get a bed ward.. i also checked their ward confirmation from the internal network.. i have a trainer, aunty Nara, she is very nice aunty.. she taught me how to handle the reception area.. i'm getting hang of it.. 1st day of work is always confusing and today, i have a little confidence to do the task on my own but still unsure of things.. i have wonderful colleagues at admission area to guide me whenever i'm in doubt.. hehe.. i appreciate it alot..

i have a good news!! tmr i'm able to attend the internship seminar!! hehe.. i asked my admission leader if i'm allowed to go off on wednesday cos i was invited to attend internship seminar and he says,"Ok, you may go off day on wednesday." hehe.. so glad that i have a very nice gentlemen admission leader.. hehe.. in return, i would do any OT and work on weekend. i told him i'm alrite with it! hehe..

Wish me good luck for tmr that they can accept me for internship!! =) i'm so sleepy liao.. i might be sleeping early tonite.. tcx!

*i wont be blogging so much as i've started working, i'm still not use to my working and body timing.. i'll be very tired.. i'll blog whenever i have the strength to open my eyes.. hehe.. i'll try.. so keep viewing for more updates! =D

1st hand experience

2009-07-12T22:09:00.004+08:00

EVAN

Back to blogging again....i've post quite a few of those simple tots by kids...so back to my normal blog...lolx...

it has been almost 2 month since i started work in CSC...it has been alrite and confirm better den MND,...lolx...less stress...@ least i am not alone...hehe..and i've nice collegue....thou the technical issue is much easier compare to LTA..but there are still some stuff i need to learn...(create email account, create NT account and other stuff)...haha...

recently went to watch transformer 2, monster vs alien...and ice age 3.....it was good...hehe...so the next up coming movie...might be..hmm...omg..i forgot...don tink any more recent show le...haha...but the above 3 show is worth watching...

went roller blading yesterday at ECP...haha...it was super fun...my 1st time...@ 1st i wans tinking...should not be tat hard rite??...should be almost same as ice skate...but i was wrong...haha....some how..there is a slight diff...haha...baby seem to be kicking my ass in roller blade..she learn fast...haha....but it was a good exp for me...but i will still choose ice skate over roller blade...lolx....

tml is baby 1sy day at work...very happy for her....she is entering the working life...haha....hope she met a good boss..haha....i believe she can do well in her job...haha...so tml will go to work with her together...and i will come find her after work..haha...thou i tink she will fin work 1st...hehe

ok...tat all for today...hehe...got to get ready for bed...lolx...so till next time..

the above video is i found fr youtube...kinda lame..but some how funny...haha

My 1st Trial

2009-07-12T13:01:00.002+08:00

Ella

yesterday, hubby, his friend,Chun Jui, and me went to East Coast Park to roller blade.. all of us cant roller blade until me and hubby saw chun jui have gone so far.. seems like he can balance well.. haha.. i fell down thrice, first hubby pull me down when he fell, second and third, i fell down cos out of balance.. haha.. but i roller blade faster than hubby.. i'm a fast learner.. hehe.. hubby didnt fell down as much as me but whenever he feel like falling down, he dance like disco to pull back his balance.. hahaha.. i hurt myself a lot during my falls.. both my palms got 'blue black'.. hehe.. wasn't so bad.. i had worst than this.. imagine yourself rock climbing and ur hand got blisters after that.. hehe..

those were great memories.. i enjoyed myself so much!! i really wanna roller blade again.. hehe.. next activity, hubby and me want to try the Via Ferrata at Orchard Central, the new mall in orchard.. i cant wait!! hehe.. looking forward to our couple activities so that i wont get bored of the relationship.. hahah..

tmr, i start work lo.. i'll be going work with hubby but he will alight at Buena Vista and i still have 5 more stops to Outram Park.. hehe.. it's ok.. i wanna go work with hubby.. hehe..hmm.. tmr, i'm very scared to ask my supervisor abt wednesday.. please wish me good luck that he allow me to go to the internship seminar.. *fingers crossed

Caught Up

2009-07-10T20:27:00.005+08:00

Ella

today, i was watching hannah montana.. i know i'm kinda childish to watch a disney channel show and SO WHAT?! everybody are young at heart.. we can be kid sometimes.. i always follow up the episodes.. hehe..

And also today, i create my new handphone/mobile theme for my Nokia E65.. haha.. i think most people doesn't know my hobbies.. this is what i do when i get bored.. i create my own mobile theme, edit my photos, change a little a bit of my blog design and etc.. mostly, my hobbies is done with computer software and studied some basic html.. hubby said to me that, "You're Fucking Talented!" lolx.. okiez.. i'm a fucking talented to him.. hahaha.. well, you can see my new mobile theme above.. this isn't just theme i make, i've done more than 10 mobile themes.. i just used 2 software, photoshop and Own Skin.. the icons, i took it from the Own skin forum share resources, well, it's not that i'm ripping but the owners are sharing it with everyone.. that's why it is called "Share Resources".. so the wallpapers, battery signal and reception signal, navigation, pop-up bar etc is created by me, myself and i.. hahah... i name it "Star" cos I'm hubby's Baby Star.. hehe.. is my new handphone theme pretty? =)

also today, i was caught up with ERC regarding the internship.. they really wants me to go for the seminar on wednesday but i'm just going to start work next week.. i don want my first impression to my supervisor think that i'm being very troublesome for him to change my working schedule.. haiz.. but i'll try my best to ask.. i thought that i could put that internship on hold but my "Big Sisters" (Irene & Min) wants to push me to take this opportunity and i told them i cant promise that i'm able to come down to the seminar.. well, the reason they want me to go to the seminar is to meet them, get to know me and if they like me, they will put my internship on hold until my contract is done.. if i get this internship, i don need to find job after my contract and my incomes will come in every month than waiting for agency to call me for interview and start all over again..

pray for me that my supervisor able to change the working shift hours or change my off day.. i know my first impression will be bad but i'm just trying my luck.. i really got caught up.. i hope my supervisor is kind enough to understand.. =)

tigger has been missing the whole day.. the last time i saw him was this morning at 0820h cos he was outside the house.. i went bck to sleep after i let him in and closed door.. i woke up at 1130h and look for him and he was nowhere to be found.. my mum told me after he ate, he was playing outside and until now, he have not come home.. i was kinda piss off with him last nite cos toilet train him was pretty hard than my previous intelligent cat, Tuti.. but now, i kinda miss him.. i miss his playful characteristics.. i miss his adorable pity face.. i miss his big fat belly.. but he is kinda stupid in toilet trained.. haiz.. i hope he's alrite and able to come back home soon.. =(

Opportunities comes at e wrong time!

2009-07-09T12:19:00.004+08:00

Ella

i just reach home from suntec city tower one to sign a 3 months contract with Singapore General Hospital as a temp clerk.. i got the news abt this ytd and got so much misunderstanding.. the person who told me i'm shortlisted for Tan Tock Seng Hospital was from Dolphin Network not ~~Search Network~~ .. stupid me! i make a mess communication at Search Network.. lolx... sorry! so i don want to wait for TTSH, i signed 3 months contract with SGH as Temp Clerk..

ytd, Irene from ERC Institute was discussing with me abt full time and part time courses.. i was quite interested in pursuing my degree there.. later that afternoon, she called me to ask if i know Widya cos she's from my school,a classmate.. well, the thing is that she is under internship working in a 5 star hotel, Shangri la Hotel with fully sponsored advance diploma business admin for 2 years degree in ERC institute.. that means, she's studying degree.. i'm like, WHAT?! lolx.. what a coincidence that she's studying there.. if i know she studied there, i really wanna ask Irene to help me abt the internship thingy.. so i got a call today from Min, Irene's colleague, she's Widya consultant at ERC i think.. haha.. Min wants to help me enroll in the internship cos i told her i've applied online before but never get any replied and it was also recommended by Widya.. firstly, i've to attend the seminars abt internship program and now, i'm stuck with a 3 mths contract SGH!! don worry, i've told Min abt my situations.. Irene and Min will help me out cos they know my situations and i want to pursue my 3 yr degree cos the requirement is higher nitec and i can get exempted some subject if possible.. hehe.. i hope everything could work smoothly for me.. i really want to take this opportunity!

firstly, i'm shorlisted for TTSH and location is near but SGH have gave me the oppostunity to star work soon and location is FAR.. alrite nvm! so 3 months contract signed! secondly, today, while going home, Min called me abt the internship, she wants to help me enroll but i'm stuck with the 3 mths contract! and she just called me 5 mins ago, that she have told the internship company abt my situation, and Alice (not sure who) will call me later to come for the seminar abt internship program probably next wednesday, 15 june.. haiz.. i don know what to say to the SGH supervisor if i start work next week.. WHY MY OPPORTUNITIES COMES AT THE WRONG TIMINGS??!!

the ERC staff are so nice, the only people i know is Min & Irene! so i met Irene ytd but i've not met Min and both are so nice people! Irene will say 'Sayang' and Min on the phone will say 'darling'.. haha.. i'm like their little sister.. lolx.. they are very nice people.. crossed my finger that i really want to take this opportunity!! pray for me... Thanks! hehe..

i blogged so much today.. earlier this morning, i was very upset and feel lonely cos everytime i've go to job interviews and other matters, i'm always going alone and no one is free to accompany me.. hubby felt guilty abt this.. and send me a cute email of a paint drawing saying 'Sorry'.. he's forgiven!

Job Shorlisted!

2009-07-07T20:00:00.004+08:00

Ella

today, i went interview at Tiong Bahru for SGH temp staff.. hehe.. i applied for 3 shifts job (over night shift) and also got few calls for interview.. ytd, i went interview at search network for SGH temp staff and today is my 2nd interview.. after that, i accompanied my friend, Haifa, for job interview at Kranji.. quite 'ulu' but i wish she got the job cos she wants full time job..

During her interview, Create Talents Pte Ltd, called me for model interview.. they got my number ytd while i was waiting for hubby at city hall mrt.. i told hubby abt it, and he was very upset.. i was upset too cos i want to be a model one day, even just for a day.. but i'm very depress when hubby is upset abt it.. i see the models from the website, it's decent photos for portfolios and advertisements.. haiz.. but i believe he must have his reasons why he doesnt want me to be model.. i love him alot that i would give it up..

btw, i got a confirmation that i'm shorlisted for Tan Tock Seng Hospital as a temperature screeners with 1 year contract, but as time passed by, i'll be posted to other departments within that 1 year.. i cant wait to start work! hehe.. working location is very near, Novena, and i like it!! hehe.. i'll take 2 transport to work, bus 806 from my house to mrt stn, and reach at Novena mrt stn where Tan Tock Seng Hospital is located.. i think i can wake up a little later too.. hehe..

today, i also received a call from ERC institute for part time courses.. she even told me that my higher nitec can jump to degree certificate within 2 yrs.. i cant believe it! haha.. i told her that i've no longer interested in Tourism but Interactive Media.. well, i still like event mgt but not tourism.. so, she told me to come over to the building and discuss with her abt part-time courses.. hehe.. we'll see abt it..

hmm.. hubby have been posting theories and cute answered qns.. i wanna know more abt his day, feelings and thoughts.. i'm looking forward to it..

i love you hubby!

what kids says

2009-07-05T14:45:00.000+08:00

Evan

Kids are asked questions about marriage...and, OH! how they answered!!

How do you decide who to marry?

"You got to find somebody who likes the same stuff. Like if you like sports, she should like it that you like sports, and she should keep the chips and dip coming." Alan, age 10
"No person really decides before they grow up who they're going to marry. God decides it all way before, and you get to find out later who you're stuck with." Kirsten, age 10

What is the right age to get married?

"Twenty-three is the best age because you know the person FOREVER by then." Camille, age 10
"No age is good to get married at. You got to be a fool to get married." Freddie, age 6

How can a stranger tell if two people are married?

"Married people usually look happy to talk to other people." Eddie, age 6
"You might have to guess, based on whether they seem to be yelling at the same kids." Derrick, age 8

What do you think your Mom and Dad have in common?

"Both don't want no more kids." Lori, age 8

What do most people do on a date?

"Dates are for having fun, and people should use them to get to know each other. Even boys have something to say if you listen long enough." Lynnette, age 8
"On the first date, they just tell each other lies, and that usually gets them interested enough to go for a second date." Martin, age 10

What would you do on a first date that was turning sour?

"I'd run home and play dead. The next day I would call all the newspapers and make sure they wrote about me in all the dead columns." Craig, age 9

When is it OK to kiss someone?

"When they're rich." Pam, age 7
"The law says you have to be eighteen, so I wouldn't want to mess with that." Curt, age 7
"The rule goes like this: if you kiss someone, then you should marry them and have kids with them. It's the right thing to do". Howard, age 8

Is it better to be single or married?

"I don't know which is better, but I'll tell you one thing. I'm never going to have sex with my wife. I don't want to be all grossed out." Theodore, age 8
"It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need someone to clean up after them." Anita, age 9
"Single is better, for the simple reason that I wouldn't want to change no diapers. Of course, if I did get married, I'd just phone my mother and have her come over for some coffee and diaper changing." Kirsten, age 10

How would the world be different if people didn't get married?

"There sure would be a lot of kids to explain, wouldn't there?" Kelvin, age 8
"You can be sure of one thing - the boys would come chasing after us just the same as they do now." Roberta, age 7

How would you make a marriage work?

"If you want to last with your man, you should wear a lot of sexy clothes, especially underwear that is red and maybe has a few diamonds on it." Lori, age 8
"Tell your wife that she looks pretty even if she looks like a truck." Ricky, age 10

Tigger is busy...

2009-06-29T19:29:00.007+08:00

Ella

okiez.. today, i was very pissed off with my dad, always nagging at me abt finding job. I got their call saying the hospital haven't activate me yet. I'm suppose to work last saturday, but i told them u have plans but i did asked them if sunday, will be alrite? she told me she'll try to schedule me on Monday. And till today, i woke up early in the morning just to call her back if i'm available for work, she said she'll call me again once the hospital activate me to work. So it's kinda like they'll call me when i'm shortlisted. And my dad blame me for rejecting that working offer last saturday. He said that they are trying to test me if i'm willing to work immediately bla bla bla.. I was very upset, and i angrily said to him, "Go and Find a job if he's so desperate of money!" I skip my family breakfast gathering, and walked home alone.. i was crying too. I sms hubby how i felt, he makes me feel better a little and i also try not to think abt it and do my usual stuff like sending resumes.

today, my mum asked me to cook spinach soup. While i was cutting the vege, Tigger was very busy-body looking at me doing all the wet hand stuff. Cutting the vege, washing them and etc. I think he wants to help me. So he tried standing in front of me, while i'm cutting the vege, he show up his nails and try to scratch the vege that i'm cutting.. isn't he cute and adorable?? hahah.. i have the photo of him looking at the veges.. but i'm not sure why i cant upload it here.. so stay tune till his photo is uploaded =)

In Memory of Michael Jackson

2009-06-26T12:55:00.003+08:00

Ella

In Memory of Michael Joseph Jackson
(August 29 1958 - June 25 2009)

The king of Pop, Michael Jackson, 50, died today cause of cardiac arrest, in another term is heart attack.

he's my childhood idol.. every single day, i watched a video tape of Michael Jackson: Dangerous Album.. i love his dance techniques, the "moon walk" and "robot" dance.. till today, it is like a symbol of Michael Jackson's dance..

late last year, 21st November 2008, reportedly said, Michael Jackson have converted to Islam at Los Angeles and his convert name is, Mikaeel. Whether it is true or not, only God know his heart. Only God can be the judge, not humans. We cant say Michael is muslim or not muslim, but i hope what he does is sincere. We all know his brother, Jermaine Jackson (Muhammad Abdul Aziz) is a muslim.

In the Memory of Michael Jackson, i would like to add some music videos and links that i love listening from Michael's Music Albums. May God have mercy on his soul and place him in heaven. Amen.

Black or White
Liberian Girl

I love the Intro!!

there's so much other songs i love!! almost all of it! Bless you Michael.. I LOVE YOU Michael!! :'(

some tots

2009-06-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

EVAN

True view about "LOVE" from kids, it will make u re-think yr views on "love"

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca - age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss"
Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen,"
Bobby - age 7

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,"
Nikka - age 6

"There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them."
Jenny - age 8

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore,"
Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
Clare - age 6

"Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine -age 5 "Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4

"I let my big sister pick on me because my Mom says she only picks on me because she loves me. So I pick on my baby sister because I love her."
Bethany - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."
Karen - age 7

"Love is when mommy sees daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget,"
Jessica - age 8

Transformer : Revenge of the Fallen (2009)

2009-06-23T14:01:00.002+08:00

Ella

i'm dying to watch Transformer 2, the revenge of the fallen with the same casting from previous transformer movie, HOT lady, Megan Fox (Mikaela Bannes), the lucky GEEK, Shia LaBeuf (Sam Witwicky), Cute Captain, Josh Duhamel(Captain Lennox), the Fast & Furious, Tyrese Gibson (USAF Tech Sergeant Epps).. HOT Castings!! Lolx..

ref: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1055369/

the trailer is out!

Bumble Bee was my previous cat nickname, Tuti Bumble Bee, cos he's so cute and cool just like Bumble Bee in transformer.. hehe.. i miss my Tuti so much!! i pray that he is happy in heaven with lots of fish to eat, and lots of pillows for him to sleep, Amen.

these days, still continuing to find job.. and i fell sick today.. bad flu, pain soar throat and a little fever.. ytd, hubby make honey lime for me.. i thought he would never do anything but he have done it.. i'm so touched that he cared so much for me.. hehe.. i love you Light!!

so far, i've gone to 4 interviews in 3 months.. i didnt get a call form them.. i really don know what to do.. i cant give up yet.. have to keep sending resumes.. tmr, i have another job interview at suntec.. wishing i could get a job asap.. anyone got any recommendations of job, please do let me know any necessary information.. thankx!

River Festival

2009-06-21T01:12:00.003+08:00

Ella

sorry.. no photos of the Singapore River Festival.. we didn't take a lot of photos at clark quay ytd.. i had a great time walking from orchard all the way down to clark quay for singapore river festival..

my leg had blisters 2 days ago becos of high heels to the parkroyal hotel interview.. it was crap and i cried after the interview cos afraid didnt get thru again.. giving up hope on searching for jobs and make me think of going back to school.. haiz.. i was feeling bad that time.. but still i wanna look for job.. i've decided not to take diploma in hospitality but interactive media.. it's part of my hobby at home.. so why not make my hobby become my career? hehe..

okiez.. so walked down to clark quay was shag, almost sulking towards hubby but i didnt.. hehe.. when we reached at clark quay, there was a musical show, some kind of drama on stage.. i didnt enjoy the show anyway.. i prefer sitting down and enjoy the view.. well, SOMEONE was enjoying an EXCELLENT view.. we were sitting on this small cube, i was facing the view the river and hubby, was facing the changing room with 2 TALL, SEXY and BEAUTIFUL cheongsam girls inside.. haha.. he was telling me that he wanted to know how is inside changing room like, not the girls.. oh well.. wateva he was seeing, you can miss an eye on those girls rite? you cant tell your eyes not to look at those girls.. so bacin! hehe.. i'm not looking for a fight.. i'm just trying to make him feel guilty but hubby pull me to other place and not sit there.. lolx..

hmm.. i'm getiing tired liao.. sadly, i didnt had dinner today.. no more rice in the rice cooker.. usually, i wont cook rice in the middle of the night.. hmm.. i've to endure my hunger till tmr lo.. hubby is having supper with his frends now.. good for him lo.. anyway, i was very hungry the whole day after my lunch.. just don want to say only lo.. we are very tight this month, outside food is very expensive but sadly, no rice at home.. sianx.. *grrr.. tommy growling lo.. hehe.. i better go sleep now.. sleepy.. gdnite!

2009-06-18T21:36:00.002+08:00

Evan

Take a break...read some joke...laugh it out

It's closing time, and two drunks are getting ready to leave the bar. "God, I hate getting home at this hour. All I want to do is take my shoes off and crawl into bed, but Hailey always nags me for what seems like hours".
"Sneaking not the way to do it. Try slamming the front door, stomping upstairs, and yelling 'Hey baby, let's have sex'. When I do that, my wife always pretends she's sound asleep".

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An old but still ruggedly handsome Sergeant Major found himself at a gala event hosted by a local liberal arts college. There was no shortage of extremely young, idealistic ladies in attendance, one of whom approached the Sergeant Major for conversation. "Excuse me, Sergeant Major, but you seem to be a very serious man. Is something bothering you?"

"Negative, ma'am. Just serious by nature."

The young lady looked at his awards and decorations and said, "It looks like you have seen a lot of action."

"Yes, ma'am, a lot of action."

The young lady, tiring of trying to start up a conversation, said, "You know, you should lighten up a little. Relax and enjoy yourself."

The Sergeant Major just stared at her in his serious manner. Finally, the young lady said, "You know, I hope you don't take this the wrong way, but when is the last time you had sex?"

"1955, ma'am."

"Well, there you are. You really need to chill out and quit taking everything so seriously!? I mean, no sex since 1955!?"

Feeling charitable and a little bit drunk, she took his hand and led him to a private room where she proceeded to "relax" him several times. Afterwards, panting for breath, she leaned against his bare chest and said, "Wow, you sure didn't forget much since 1955!"

The Sergeant Major, glancing at his watch, said in his matter-of-fact voice, "I hope not, it's only 2130 now."

(You've got to love military time!)
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Husband and wife decide to make a password for sex, they decide on 'washing machine'.
Later in bed that night the husband says, "Washing machine."
His Wife replies, "Not tonight darling, I have a sore head."
Half an hour passes and she feels guilty so she says, "Washing machine."
This time the husband replies, "Too late, it was only a small load so I decided to do it by hand"

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A trucker who has been out on the road for two weeks stops at a brothel outside Atlanta.
He walks straight up to the Madam, drops down £500 and says: "I want your ugliest woman and a grilled cheese sandwich!"
The Madam is astonished. "But sir, for that kind of money you could have one of my finest ladies and a three-course meal."

The trucker replies: "Listen darlin', I'm not horny - I'm homesick."

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Two notorious drunks are sitting at the bar. one is crying. the other asks
what's wrong. the crying drunk says, "i've puked all over myself again and my
wife's gonna kill me. what do i do pal?"

The one drunk offers this advice: "explain to your wife that some other drunk
puked on you. put a ten spot in your shirt pocket and tell her that the drunk
was sorry and gave you ten bucks to have your clothes cleaned."

"Sound like a great idea," says the crying drunk.

When he gets home, sure enough his wife is fuming and begins yelling at him
about his clothes and how disgusting he is.

The drunk starts spinning the lie and says, "look for you, there's ten bucks
in my pocket."

His wife looks in the pocket and finds twenty dollars. "wait a minute, i
thought you said the guy gave you ten bucks for puking on you," says the wife.

"He did," say the drunk, "but he pee in my pants too!"

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Tired of everyday's task

2009-06-16T23:09:00.002+08:00

Ella

i'm tired of everyday sending out hundreds of resumes and i get a few interviews and waiting for calls only.. haiz.. i don understand why admin position is so hard to get thru.. c'mon! is just a simple boring office job and none i get thru it.. is employers being very picky too? mostly, looking for diplomas for admin positions.. admin for diploma grads is like a shit work! studying so hard for diploma and work as admin?? damn man.. employers really look down on diplomas..

okiez.. i have higher nitec business admin and few working experiences although it wasn't long period of working but still, i know what i'm capable of doing things.. i just cant believe this.. some without experienced needed, urgent, able to start work immediately and i didnt even get a call from them.. are they really urgently looking for people to work for them? fuck this bull shit!! they are very picky!! people say i'm being very picky, the employers too ok!! i'm really giving up hope of getting a job.. haiz.. and some needed chinese speaking for chinese clients.. HELLO!!! this is Singapore, multi culture country, not CHINA!!! fuck this people and learnt english for god sake!! Fuckers!!

anyway, i got appointment interview at park royal hotel for guest service assistant.. wish me good luck for the interview and i'll do my best to communicate well with the interviewer! =)

am i your one in a million?

2009-06-12T00:33:00.005+08:00

Ella

am i your 'one in a million'? have i given you love? have i met your expectations? have i mistreated you?

i tried my best to make u happy.. i have given you pleasures and happy moments.. when you're troubled, i helped you with solutions and advices.. i fought with you most of the time.. i sulked and cried a lot.. i ran away from u but i ran back to you again.. one day if i left you, will you come back to me? it's a 'No'.. that day, i wont come back to u again and i'll be the most stupid girl on earth that left the most special man in my life and the most pathetic girl on eaarth that running back to my love..

when you need me to massage you and some other things, i will search, learn and change myself to take care of you.. have you ever satisfy me? i'm sick all the time and my cure is pills, tablets, capsules and ointment..

i want to love you and give you everything you need.. i want to plan for our future.. create a new family.. i hope you could make an effort to meet my needs..

New Kitten!

2009-06-11T01:03:00.003+08:00

Ella

ytd was our 32nd month anniversary! we didnt do anything special.. recently, i've been very moody and cry most of the time.. i get bored easily and hubby didnt know what to say till he suggest to plan an activity for couple.. so i've done my research.. there's so many fun activities that couples can do but most of it is like daily and normal dates.. i found 15 activities that we have not done before... hubby plan that on my birthday, we will have camping at pulau ubin for the 2 of us..

at first, i wasn't quite agree with it cos just only the 2 of us.. kinda boring.. i know he have gone camping with his "Best buddies" last yr.. i didnt join them cos they make me feel AKWARD.. oops! i've just said it.. and now just the 2 of us, is like he's going camping to pulau ubin few times with different people at the same spot/place.. to me, camping is the more the merrier! but if that someone cant make others feel welcome, pls don join.. haiz..

i didnt tell him abt how i felt when he suggested camping, but now.. after discussing the activities we can do there.. i'm really looking forward to it! haha.. we gonna compete each other who can survive if we are in deserted island.. lolx.. like building own shelter, a boat, fire and other stuff.. haha.. okiez okiez.. back to the topic for today!

i found a new kitten outside my doorstep.. i don know who's that jerk leaving a kitten outside my door cos i'm not ready to keep one yet but so far, this little guy cute!! haha.. his biodata as follows:

Name: Tigger
Gender: Male
Found: 5 June 2009
Age: Week 7
Character: Active, playful, 'Manja' & Fast learner

according to my brother, he said that this kitten is rare breed.. well, tigger looks like a local cat to me.. he doesn't look rare breed.. okiez.. tigger and garfield(my brother's cat), they have the almost the same face features and body patterns except that they're different color.. hehe.. it's been almost one week taking care of him.. he's already toilet trained!! the first 2 days was nightmare cos he poops and pee on my bed.. is HELL!! but after that, he ran to the toilet!! Good Kitty!!

okiez.. next week, my dad is coming back home.. i think he wont like to see tigger at home.. i just cant give him up like that.. i hope things can work out well.. probably when tigger is older, i'll let him off or NOT.. hehe.. we'll see abt it.. btw, my dad is in good condition, still need to go for his appointments.. i'm lazy to accompany him.. sianx..

it's hard

2009-06-04T20:33:00.005+08:00

Ev@N

normally when i blog...i would oways skip the sad moments in my life...but today i am gonna make a change....

Being a very sensitive person is hard....coz for every little mood change ...u might think otherwise...thou my feeling tells me..." its like tat..don worry"...but my brain tells me ..." no!!!....look at her....she look moody...she look sianz...something must be wrong!!"....so i am oways suck between this two choice...to ask or not to ask....if i ask...it pissed her off...but if i don ask...i feel weird inside....so sometime i just don know wat to do...i don need her to every day put on "fake mood" for me...at the very least...when she is fine but with that moody...at least tell me sincerely that she is ok...and not tell me "ok" but with a boring and moody sound...

ok enuff said...hope tat every thing will be ok....currently in my new job....in CSC...nice place...nice colleague...and very good house keep of asset...lolx...much better den LTA...but only thing is tons of paper work...well..in my line...i don tink i can escape not doing paper work...i lived with it...lolx...

Baby's dad in the hosiptal...for an op...hopefully after this event...every thing will be well...and let's us pray for a speedy recovery...

quiz time...see if u can answer them

1. If u have 3 apples...and u take away 2....how many do u have???

2. Is it legal for a man in New York to marry his widow's sister?

3 An electric train is traveling South at 70 MPH, the wind is blowing 30 MPH to the East. Which direction does the smoke going to travel?

answer the quiz in the chat box...hehe

Do i have emotional disorder?

2009-06-04T00:12:00.002+08:00

Ella

my emotions can be ups and down anytime.. is this normal or am i having 'emotional disorder'? oh ya.. i think i know what it is, Bipolar Disorder (Manic Depressive Disorder).. look it up in wikipedia urself..

why am i posting this? cos i want to.. what is blogging for rite? i wanna type anything i want to say here.. of cos u've read so many happy stories here but there are less sad stories that wasn't in detailed.. here i wanna put it in detailed.. we've fought so much abt the same things over and over again cos of my mood.. he wants me to smile everytime.. i understands he's a happy-go-lucky person and also full of craps and jokes and i'm the opposite, i have frown face, so many worries and my mood is always ups and downs and also serious type of personality..

i tried my best to meet his needs.. smiling all day long and be happy!! cos he doesn't like the day wasting with tears, fights and frown faces.. i want that too.. but when i'm happy, i don put a smile on my face.. i'm calm happy.. when i'm quiet, that means i got nthg to talk abt!! I'M NOT A LIBRARY THAT FULL OF DIFFERENT BOOKS TO READ AND TALK ABOUT!! i'm a human being created by god with mixed emotions and expressions.. different people show it in different ways.. i'm not a machine that can be created by him and meet his needs every single day!! maybe some of you may think that i'm very emotional person.. yes! i AM!! "hey, take life easy ok? don be so serious.. be happy!" i tried my best to do that for him.. think of ways to put that smile on my face to show it to him.. he needs to see that natural smile than just the emotions i have.. cos to him, happy means smile..

i'm very frustrated! here's a note to take for u to understand:

when i'm jumping/playing around, i'm crazy and hyper and that doesn't mean happy.. is just being hyperactive..
when i laughed at anything, i'm having fun and shag at the same time..
when i'm calm and quiet/talk less, i'm just being normal happy..
when i don look at u in the eyes, i'm angry..

i hope this theory make u understand me.. cos u, Evan, believe in logical more than emotions.. u believe what u see or hear more than what u feels.. that's u, Evan!!

*somebody please take me to psychiatrist to fix my emotions before he left me soon...... he hates me being emotional..

Twilight Sage: New Moon Movie Trailer

2009-06-01T23:12:00.002+08:00

Ella

OMG!! Jacob is so HOT!! lolx.. i cant wait for the movie.. hehe.. i hope it's a good movie.. haha.. alrite, i'm still reading breaking dawn SLOWLY.. getting lazy to read cos bella is like a bitch, loving 2 guys at one time.. well, yeah, she's married to edward but i'm pretty sure she still have feelings for jacob.. hehe.. okiez, this trailer, jacob is HOT!! haha.. enjoy Twilight FANS!!! =)

Star Light

2009-05-31T22:44:00.003+08:00

Ella

recently, my dad was very sick and weak.. as a family, we've been thru tough challenges and difficult situations.. i pity my mom for taking care of my dad when he need attention and meet his demands.. i wish my dad can recover soon.. i pray that his operation this coming 4th june is successful..

few days ago, hubby and me created a new nick name for us, we are called "star light".. hehe.. light represent a sun, it is very bright.. some says that stars are actually a 'mini sun'.. the nearest star to earth is the sun.. without light, there's no stars.. hubby is the light of my life and i'm his lucky star of his life.. together we are, star light.. hehe.. sweet rite?? we are no more the cindrella and princevan.. our new couple name is star light! if we can make a special necklace that specially for us and nowhere else can be found, the only one pair of necklace in this earth, the pendant will glow and shines a shape of star when there's light reflected it.. hehe.. but i'm sure it's gonna cost a lot!! hehe.. we'll try our best to look for this inventor to customize it for us.. =)

Wedding plans?

2009-05-26T14:00:00.005+08:00

Ella

haiz.. i've been feeling very lethargic nowadays.. i just recovered from my fever and flu.. my temperature is only 37.8.. that's the highest i can get and feels so sick and weak.. hehe.. don understand why.. i've been skipping meals too.. and don feel hungry at all.. but i have to force myself to eat cos i hate the fainting spells..

this week is hubby's pay day.. i'm so excited cos i hate to see the bank account left only 1 digit number.. hehe.. recently, i went to marina sq after my job interview as a PA.. talking abt job interview, i met the interviewer.. he don't seem to know how to interview.. don seem so professional.. he didnt even look at me.. dont seem interested.. it's sucks anyway! i think he's low educated person.. he dont even know what the highest GPA.. Fcuk face!

so, me and hubby headed to marina sq for a movie, Night At The Museum 2.. the movie is so GREAT!! lolx.. before we go to the cinema, we were standing at the railings looking down at the marina atrium.. there was an exhibition of wedding agencies.. hehe.. i showed hubby some of the dresses that i would pick.. hehe.. and hubby suggested that if next year there's wedding exhibition again, hubby wanna bring me there and book a wedding package.. he says the package can be booked for 2 years.. haha.. i was somehow excited abt it but at the same time, i'm scared of the price.. cos i can get good offer from my sis-in-law as she is referral from L.A.B bridal couture.. lolx.. and i just don want to expect so much abt wedding stuff.. i still need to go as plan.. i neeed to get a job, save big amount of money for my wedding probably in another 5 years time.. the longer i wait for a job, i'll delay my wedding plan..

there's also other financial problems not settle.. i want to start a new life with zero records of financial problems.. then, i can have my happy fairytale ending, happily ever after..

okiez.. i'm starting to get hungry.. haha.. guess what! i've watched america pie part 1, 2 & 3! it's sex comedy among teenagers.. very funny movie! hehe.. u guys should watch it too! hehe.. gtg.. tcx!

Go CL!! Go CL!! i Love 2NE1!!

Eunhyuk! Only for you.. It's SEXY!! hehe.. Eeteuk, love ur ponytail!! lolx

Belong to love

2009-05-21T00:34:00.004+08:00

Ella

continue from previous post.. i ran back to look for him.. i didnt see him standing there.. i went down to city link and my sense telling me to go up the escalator to marina sq, and that's where i found him.. i ran and hug him! crying at the same time.. i cant promise him that i'll accept his flaws cos i know, in the near future i'll do it again and running back to him.. i love him alot that i cant break up with him.. in my mind all this while is that, i just wanna leave him awhile and comes back.. not breaking up! is just like home cats straying outside but he come back home later cos he knows that where he belongs.. and i belong to Evan Toh Wai Mun only! no other man can take me away from him!

yesterday, hubby got his off day cos tmr is his first day at new work place, Civil Service College @ bouna vista.. Good Luck Hubby! hehe.. his off day, we went to sentosa.. objective is to roller blade and without knowing that they don have roller blades, only bicycle.. hehe.. so, we change our minds.. just hang out at the beach and we started of with a sight seeing but so many big ships.. i get bored.. hehe.. we found a hut and sat there thinking what to do.. hehe.. it was getting very hot.. hubby perspire alot.. hehe.. we saw a lonely bird that got disturb by other birds.. very sad le.. pity that lonely bird.. i think he's sick.. after the sun go down slowly, i suggested hubby to play sand.. lolx.. i try to make a heart that is unbreakable by holding them in ur hands with ur hard work but it still smash.. hehe.. so i told hubby that lets make a heart made from sand and water with a lesson learn for couples, especially both of us.. hehe..

the sand at the beach is ourselves, our efforts, compromise, trust and water is our care & love.. firstly, create a shape of a heart with sand, pouring bit of water to mould it... so that our heart stays in shape.. too much water, the sand will get very soft and out of shape.. that's where we start to argue, demanding for more love and care, become a spoiled couple.. add sand to mould it back to heart shape.. our feelings, our thoughts and our patients, compromise and forget abt the arguments.. just back in shape again, a heart that represents US.. =)

**I Love You Always**

~having bad flu after i reached home.. sianx.. =(

Leaving with love

2009-05-17T00:31:00.004+08:00

Ella

2 days ago, friday, 15 may 2009.. had some quarrels with hubby.. he gave me 2 choices, if i cant accept him and tolerate his nonsense for the next few months which will happen again, i can walk to the right and go home or accept him, and walk to the left for dinner..

i chose right.. walking straight and i left him.. i did looked back, and saw him standing there with frown and it's a choice that i make to leave him.. i cried so hard, i wanted to go back to him but i was afraid it's too late, he might have gone.. so, this will be continue in the next post..

i wanted to share some music videos of KPOP.. i love kpop! here are some suggestions from my little sister, enjoy!

this is my favourite song! Boys Over Flowers OST, Because i'm stupid.

Jokes

2009-05-13T20:38:00.002+08:00

EVAN

JOkes are back...and i will update them as often as i can..

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A Bus stops and two Italian men get on. They sit down and engage in animated Conversation.

The Lady sitting next to them ignores them at first,
But her attention is galvanized when she hears one of them say this.

'Emma come first . Den I come. Den two asses come together. I come once more!
Two asses come together Again. I come again and pee twice.
Den I come one lasta time.

The Lady can't take any more of this,

'You foul mouthed Sex Obsessed pig ! She retorted Indignantly
' In this country we do not speak aloud in Public Places about our Sex lives '

'Hey Coola Down Lady ,' said the Man. Who talking about Sex ? I was just telling my friend how to spell

'mississippi'

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A blonde woman was having financial troubles so she decided to kidnap a child and demand a ransom.
She went to a local park, grabbed a little boy, took him behind a tree and wrote a note:

"I have kidnapped your child. I am sorry to do this but I need the money.
Leave $10,000 in a plain brown bag behind the big oak tree in the park at 7AM ." Signed, "The Blonde."
She pinned the note inside the little boy's jacket and told him to go straight home.

The next morning, she returned to the park, and to her great relief, found the $10,000 in a brown bag behind the big oak tree,
just as she had instructed.

Inside the bag with the cash was the following note:

"Here is your money. But I just cannot believe that one blonde would do this to another."

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A man starts his new job at the zoo and is given three tasks.

First is to clear the exotic fish pool of weeds.

As he does this, a huge fish jumps out and bites him.

To show the others who's boss, he beats it to death with a spade.

Realising his employer won't be best pleased; he disposes of the fish by feeding it to the lions, as lions will eat anything.

Moving on to the second job of clearing out the chimp house, he is attacked by the chimps who pelt him with coconuts.

He swipes at two chimps with a spade, killing them both.

What can he do?

Feed them to the lions, he says to himself, because lions eat anything.

He hurls the corpses into the lion enclosure.

He moved on to the last job, which is to collect honey from the South African bees.

As soon as he starts, he is attacked by the bees.

He grabs the spade and smashes the bees to a pulp.

By now he knows what to do and throws them into the lion's cage - because lions eat anything.

Later that day a new lion arrives at the zoo.

He wanders up to another lion and says

'What's the food like here?'

The lions say

'Absolutely brilliant.

Today we had fish and chimps with mushy bees.'

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A middle-aged businessman took a young woman half his age as his wife. The fantasy of having a young woman in his bed soon became a nightmare when he found that he could not last long enough to satisfy his young bride.

His wife, as understanding as she was exciting, told him that all was well even if he was quick to get out of the saddle.

Determined to satisfy this sweet young thing, the man visited the doctor to get some advice.

"Doctor, I can't seem to hold back for very long when I make love to my young wife and I can't satisfy her. What can I do?"

The doctor smiled, patted him on the shoulder, and said in a professional manner, "Try a bit of self-stimulation before having intercourse with your wife and you'll find that you'll last longer and ultimately satisfy her."

"Okay, Doctor. If you think that will help."

Later that afternoon, his young bride called him at work to let him know that she would be attacking him at the front door when he arrived home.

"Be prepared, my darling. I'm going to ravish you," she cooed over the phone.

Undaunted, the man decided to follow the doctor's advice. But where? In the office? The Xerox room? What if someone walked in on him?

He got in his truck and began the journey home. Soon he decided he would find a spot on the road to pull over, climb underneath the truck and pretend to be inspecting the rear axle, and do the deed there.

A moment later, he pulled over, crawled beneath the truck, closed his eyes tightly, fantasized about his young wife, and began his "therapy".

A few minutes later, just as he was about to complete his therapy session, he felt someone tugging on his pants leg. Keeping his eyes tightly shut to avoid ruining the fantasy he was enjoying, he said, "Yes?"

"Sir, I'm with the Police Department. Could you tell me what you are doing, please?" said the officer.

"Yes, officer, I'm inspecting my truck's rear axle," he replied confidently.

"Well, why don't you check the brakes while you're down there. Your truck rolled down the hill a few minutes ago."

Apologize for late updates

2009-05-13T00:05:00.003+08:00

Ella

hi readers! sorry for the late updates.. okiez, i'm just gonna cut it short! i've officially graduated from ITE College East, and currently, looking for job.. yesterday afternoon, i went for interview at Recruit Express, Ngee An City Tower A, for customer service/ administrative at NUH.. please pray for me that i'll get a call from NUH for 2nd interview and get the job!

hubby's nokia phone spoiled.. i think the screen got cracked.. see la! i think he sleeps on the phone! never mind.. anway, 2 days ago, he bought a new phone, HTC Touch Pro, at Lucky Plaza.. the phone is very cheap but the package not so good.. i guess that's why is cheaper.. hehe.. i also survey for LG Prada 2, the cheapest i saw was $690 before GST.. hehe.. i hope i can get the job, and bought the phone immediately after my first pay.. hehe..

okiez.. currently,his savings became so little.. almost dried up.. it's ok.. our financial status is stable and hopefully the next three months can reach up to 4 digit.. hehe.. i've read my polls.. most of my readers wanna see more of Jokes and videos.. i'll try my best to post some of it here.. hehe.. thank you for doing the survey for me!

okiez, today i would like to post this video.. it was forwarded email video, i think most of you have watched it before.. hehe.. this is embarrasing!! check it out:

good day everyone!

Our First Oversea Trip

2009-04-12T19:59:00.017+08:00

Evan & Ella

Our first oversea trip together- Genting Highland & Kuala Lumpur, 3 Days 2 Nights =)

We took Grassland Royal VIP bus. The trip cost per person is S$197 includes the bus coach, mini van to KL & accommodation.

we board the bus at 0730h. the bus was very comfy, can play movies, adjust the seat. feels so good! hehe.. reach our destination at 14oo+h. Our accommodation is at first world hotel. the check-in was horrible.. very crowded and took a long time to check-in. if i didn't remember wrongly, we checked in at 1500h.
alright, the room is quite disappointed. i thought there will be a closet, bathtub, and coffee table but there was none of it.. well, i love the bed! hehe..
after resting awhile in our room, we went out to outdoor theme park.. we didnt take lots of rides.. only 2 rides.. haha.. kinda pathetic.. pay so much but only 2 rides.. lolx.. we took the spinner and the flying coaster! haha.. that was one damn fun activity i've ever had! hehe..
next activity was at ripley's believe it or not! it's scary stuff in there! our dinner was so good cos i'm very picky.. but i do had some good food! hehe.. hubby ate alot! he keeps getting off the table and grab food.. lolx..
after we had our dinner, den we rush over to watch fast and furious 4....@ 1st we were thinking of getting the osim chair but it was right at the front, so we gave up the idea, and have the regular sitting..hehe...after movie we head in to our room and spend our quality time together.. lolx.. at night was freezing cold, hubby didn't sleep cos he still feels excited abt the trip.. hehe.. i was shivering the whole night and hubby took good care of me.. he hugs me and cover me with lots of blanket, but the most warm thing i've ever felt was his body and not the blanket.. i slept pretty well cos of his warm body.. hehe..
it was the next monday, we had breakfst mary browns, it was gooood!!!...we both had chicken porridge...after tat we went out for a short walk, it was so cooling...hehe....as u can see from the pic below, the mist is every where...hehe....
as we had some time till our bus (which will take us down to KL)...we spend some time at the arcade...hehe...and soon it was bye bye genting...hehe...hello KL !!!!...
finally at around 1500 + we check in to swiss garden hotel....the room was omg....super nice...veyr much comfy den genting 1st world....lolx...but do not ever stay at nova hotel...really really look creepy...haha...
after a short rest in the room....we grab a cab and head down to sunway pyramid...it was super duper big...i tink we shop there for 3 hours and still cant conquer the whole shopping mall...but i swear we will do that the next trip...lolx..well..i kinda forget to take the camera..haha..so the pic below is from baby hp...haha...
we head back to our hotel around 8pm...we had our dinner at the hotel buffet resturant...i am not sure if we are hungry or the food is good...but we sure damm enjoy it...i knew i had alot...haha...after dinner we head back to our room for a rest...and wash up..and walk our way to petaling street....so full of ppl selling fake goods..hahaha...but never reallybuy anything exept a dvd for jorel...haha...we headed back to our hotel and enjoy our quiet moment with a cake and a nice cup of tea...it was our 30th month..hehe....soon we dozed off...sad that our trip is ending...lolx...

the next morning, as usual, we had our breakfast at the same restaurant.. i love that restaurant! too bad, i cant remember what's the restaurant name.. sorry! Oh! i just remembered.. it is flavors! hehe.. and there are lots of places we didnt get to et around in KL, so lastly, we packed and go to Suria KLCC.. just walked around the mall, we bought death note dvd full series and take some pics of the KL Tower.

after we had a short fun at KLCC, and we actually went back to hotel and have our lunch at the same restaurant.. hehe.. okiez.. we miss KL!! we love those days that we spent together.. hehe.. sorry for the late updates!! tcx!

Japanese Crossdressing Show

2009-04-03T13:08:00.002+08:00

Ella

if hubby can do the cross dressing show, will he loook KAWAII or ugly? lolx.. found this video from my friend's Facebook, Aaron.. he is my higher nitec classmate.. this video is a Japanese Crossdressing Show (with eng sub). Just posting this up to share with my readers.. hehe.. thanks to Aaron for uploading this Suprising video on Facebook! hehe.. enjoy!

There's a warning message from Aaron:

WARNING : This video will disorientate guys BADLY. Also, girls with low confidence, please DO NOT watch this.

Disorders that may result as of watching this video include:
1) Fainting
2) Jumping out of the window
3) Hysterical disbelief
4) Girls trying to convince themselves that they are prettier!

Exam Result April's Fool

2009-04-01T10:19:00.002+08:00

Ella

this morning, i checked my phone to see my inbox.. i was still blur lo.. just wake up le.. there was 2 messages, one from unknown number and hubby.. of cos, i'll checked hubby's message first.. hehe.. den, the 2nd message was from unknown number lo.. i was thinking it must be some advertising message.. i look carefully trying to focus on the message and oh! it was from school..

there are some subject codings which i don know what subject it is.. and den i read again, each of the subject codes have =A.. thinking what is that? my brain still not awake yet.. haha.. i tried to rub my eyes and read again.. i think i read the message for 4 times.. and still not sure what is it.. the 5th time, i understand what it is.. both my subject got A!!!! my emotions was very slow.. abt few seconds of reading it, i finally shouted in my room, I PASSED!!! my final term, i got 4 GPA!! LOLX!! so my overall gpa of Higher NITEC is 3.179 GPA.. finally, i got one of my wish list came true!! graduate with Higher NITEC certificate with 3 GPA and above!! yeah!!

after some time, i called hubby.. he didnt pick up.. so i thought, today is April Fool! haha.. i just wake up with my voice like crying, it's an advantage! hehe.. so hubby called me back.. i sound very sad.. told him that i got my results for exam.. i told him i failed.. both subject i got D.. hehe.. hubby is going to fall into my trap soon already.. haha.. i continue to voice out my crying voice.. hubby was feeling sad for me.. that means he already fell into my trap without knowing.. hehe.. and then, APRIL FOOL!!! haha.. hubby is the first person to get APRIL FOOL for this morning.. hehe.. and he called me ASS HOLE a few times!! lolx..

nowadays, i sent a lot of my resumes.. none of them called me.. haiz.. i really need to work!! i want to earn money to buy my stuff!! please call me!! The jobs i enjoy are those that let me burn off my considerable excess energy.. i love outdoors and challenges like event assistant, outdoor instructor or smething.. if don have, i can also work in office like admin, receptionist or front desk, data entry etc..

friends, if you have any work recommendation, please state in my cbox.. thank you!

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WARNING : This video will disorientate guys BADLY. Also, girls with low confidence, please DO NOT watch this.

Disorders that may result as of watching this video include:
1) Fainting
2) Jumping out of the window
3) Hysterical disbelief
4) Girls trying to convince themselves that they are prettier!